YTuesday, May 31, 2005
its cute hw peeps think tt we're cute as a couple. haha.. dun make sense. anna's comment was even better.. "eh.. u 2 lyk as if fr a movie lyk tt.." haha.. thx girl. u're making us sound unreal but we're nt. hee..
short day is sch. but last period.. sux!!! fndb. for once. i dun understand wat the lecturer is trying to teach abt database. damn it. so i fig my class is the worst calss. as usual. wats new. haha.. every1 fr my class was lyk falling aslp. yes. including the geeks and me. haa. practically every1 skipped makeup lesson today [which is suppose to be on nw. ok.. ending..]. i wonder who even attend.
i dunno if the date wif wen is still on for thurs. mom seems lyk she wanna lock me at hm. i mean. nt allow me to meet wen. she thinks im meeting her too much. am i? i cant help it anywaz.
yea! dad's in taipei nw. haa.. prissy tot i'll have the whole hse to myself. damn it. no. i wish! haha.. no time for monkey business anywaz. sch. argh.. heck. i'll make full use of it anywaz. haa..
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YSunday, May 29, 2005
haha.. thrs a show abt michael jackson on star movies nw. its lyk a re-enactment of his life and stuffs. my gosh.. its making him seem lyk his a total nutcase. i miss the old michael jackson. the black talented 1. whr has he gone to?? i whudden say michael jackson is my idol. esp aft he changed so much. it whud be gross. i still rmb hw his cd was the 1st record i bought. ok enough abt michael.
thr are things i want to say but im afraid i'll convey the wrong msg. ah! this sucks.
i cant meet baby as and when i want to anymore. sch isnt helping tts for sure. screw sch. i want my hols back.
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i hate it when its the time of the month
i hate being a girl at the moment
i hate cramps [why do i have to have them?!]
i hate it when i cant access into ole to download my fucking notes
i hate it when thr is nthing for me to watch on tv
i hate everything but u.
i dont hate loving u. --> to i love u! [hee..]
-grouchy
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YSaturday, May 28, 2005
my phone line is restored. i can use the net finally! it sux nt having a line at hm for lyk wat? 2 days?
i was doin this bloody quiz thingy for comm skills juz nw. its part of my hmwork. i can take this quiz as many times as i lyk. so.. obviously i'll take me many times till i do well... the quiz is kinda lyk an eng test. DUH! i expect a gd score... 1st attempt. i didnt do well.. den it gt worst.. aft much battling with it... i finally scored almost full score. im satisfied. finally. haha..
ok.. back to studying nw.. ive gt lotsa notes to go through still.
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YThursday, May 26, 2005
im in sch. bored. pissed. irritated. cranky. as usual. wats new? having break nw. i hate breaks. ive gt totally nthing to do. shit. im so tempted to use vulagrities at the moment. its been many many *beep* days since i last use the word *beep* lecturers are starin. so is every1 else behind me.
-i'll shut-
i miss my girls
i miss my boy
i miss eating u up so dun u dare piss me off rite nw.
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YWednesday, May 25, 2005
today's the 2nd day of sch.. im both loving and hating it. its fun being in a new class though im only lyk mixing ard wif 2 other grls and a guy in class. made a few other frenz fr other yrs and sch too. so! the part tt i hate. printin of my own notes. ive been hoggin both laptop and desktop comp these few days. juz to print my notes.
been bumping in baby these 2 days. went home together today too.. seems lyk wednesday is de only day in the wk when baby's timetable fits mine. haha.. break during the same time, start and end sch at the same time too. hee..
some lessons are kinda fun. busy taking dwn notes, staring at the teacher.. my kind of thing. haa. thr both things tt i understand and dun. gotta buck up. know everything!!! its a muz!! Z!!! Here i come to gt u!! haha.. yes. im aiming for a Z. [ Z = distinction and is in top 5%. ooh... ]
okok.. print!! notes and worksheets!!!! ciaoz.
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YMonday, May 23, 2005
as u can see.. i changed my blogskin. i knw it looks murderous but i think the chucky bride look alike is pretty cute. haha.. sounds worng but yar. tag to tell me if u hate it or love it yea? im toking abt the skin damn it. im totally in love wif wen's new skin too.. theme: toilet paper. haha..
vesak day [plus last day of sch hols] is a total bore. sorry. no offence. its juz tt ive gt totally nthing to do today. mom and dad has decided to juz stick their asses at home. they think i need rest. [sch starts tml. nw u knw y] seriously.. im still in the holiday mood. yes.. i was complaining abt hw long my sch hols are and i want sch to start badly. nw.. ive changed my mind. im seriously nt in the studying mood but in the working moood. sitting ard still isnt my thing but i want more hols!!!
dad's goin to taiwan again. i wanna follow!! but damn it. ive gt to be in sch.. argh.. mom is nt following dad AGAIN. i want her to go too! and i rather nt go if she's going. obviously, she wudden go. cos im here. and she doesnt feel safe leaving me here alone. damn it.
i have no idea whr to go, wat to wear, wat bag to bring and wat to do tml.
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YSunday, May 22, 2005
i have no idea wat to say. i juz felt lyk bloggin. so i'll say something.
SOMETHING!
yes. i said something already. -bored- -very very bored-
sch's starting pretty pretty soon. excited? nt really. i have no idea whr's the lecture hall to my 1st lesson. i'll be lost.
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YSaturday, May 21, 2005
so im sitting here waiting lyk a fool for u to contact me. i wanna contact u but i dunno if i'll end up contacting ur mom. feeling kinda depressed. dunno why. some horrible music by j.lo is blasting on my radio nw. i hate it.
its time for me to visit the dentist. 1 part of my gum hurt.
was reading some1's blog juz nw. she was complaining abt hw peeps sterotype peeps. wat she said was pretty true. hey. when u're a sucker for rock music.. it doesnt mean u have to dress punk or goth. fuck it. i wear wat i want. i say wat i want. i be who wat i want. it aint ur business.. and u've gt no rites sterotyping others. u pt a finger at me, my middle finger will be pointed back at u. so wat if im a sucker for rock music. it doesnt mean im nt allowed to wear heels, paint my nails pink at times, wear dangling earrings when i want, wear girlie clothes when i want [which i hardly do. but still do.], read fashion mags, and cry lyk a bitch when im upset. im human. means ive gt a right in watever i do. im nt commiting any fucking crime. stop discriminating me u asshole. i knw u hate me. guess wat. i dun care.
-i miss u. tok to me will ya?-
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YFriday, May 20, 2005
i survived orientation. 2 reactions. 1st [day] i was pissed. really really pissed. hated it. 2nd [day] it was fun. but i had to leave pretty early for work. sad. haha.. contradictin huh.. ran away fr orientation yest.. left to meet wen and rosa at bugis. bought this shirt wif bruce lee on it. my gosh. its really nice. i dun care. im wearing tt on the 1st day of sch. haa.
i pulled a leg muscle. im in pain though it has subsided. had prbs goin dwn the stairs today. so embrassing.
baby's timetable is pretty diff fr mine. my lessons end earlier den his. looks lyk im gonna have prbs meeting him aft sch. sad. i miss him to bits [even though i juz saw him yest]. hee.. so we're in the same sch but i doubt i'll be able to lyk bump into him. all thx to our timetable. *grumbles*
loveuloveuloveuloveuloveuloveuloveu
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YThursday, May 19, 2005
im juz disappointed. upset. -the end-
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YWednesday, May 18, 2005
orientation is juz few hrs away. tml. gosh. im freaked. new environment. new faces. ahh!! freaked!! cold feet. haha.. so.. im running away halfway tml. i rather be shopping [which im gonna do aft tt]. im gonna shut up in class tml. haha.. yes! im cold! be it. but im too freaked to say anything to new faces at the moment. haha..
wish me luck!
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YTuesday, May 17, 2005
gt to meet my sweety today. went for a movie. the movie is so disappointing. so a few peeps insist tt i watch the amityville horror becos its damn gd. yea rite. as if. it was so boring. thru out the movie. baby and i were hoping for it to end soon and we were lyk er.. 1st. it isnt scary. 2nd. its predictable. sux! to make matters worst.. thrs this guy who smells lyk rotten watermelon. his feet stinks and he keep "rising" his feet up. erm.. as in when he cross his leg.. the higher side of his feet is facing us. eew! big turn off..
nt only the movie sux. ps sux too.. my gosh. its sooooooo borrriinnnng! we were wasting time lyk idiots. haha... luckily.. it was wif him. hee... so im fine wif it. ive made a big achievement today. i finally walked all the way fr ps to far east plaza. yea!! it really felt lyk the dist wasnt so long aftall.. maybe its cos im wif baby. hee.. *blush blush* i miss him already.
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YMonday, May 16, 2005
she's hurt becos of u. hw could u do this to her? she loved u wif all her heart. guys lyk u shudden be born into this world.
U'RE DISGUSTING. OOH.. U'RE NASTY. I HATE PEOPLE LYK U.
BABY GIRL.. HE ISNT WORTH YOUR LOVE. DO NOT TRUST SUCH PEOPLE.
pss.. sweetheart.. baby... yes.. u knw u who are.. im NOT toking abt u. hee. i iloveu sweety! **** [code breaker. haha..]
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bunch of mudds.. singing loudly and horribly downstair. they're singing only 1 by yellowcard. my gosh! but it was funny and cute. i think they're doing tt for some minah staying at my block. haha.. if baby were to do tt to me.. sing loudly under my block. it whud be nice and cute and i'll pat his head. haha.. love love.
to edwin:
[i knw wat u're trying to do. make me fall u. i juz want u to leave. leave me alone. tried to give the hints to u. but its lyk it came out de other ear.
i dont care wat u do. i dun care abt u. i dun care. get a clue. cos i dun really lyk u. u dun make any sense. its all at ur expense. cos i dun really lyk u.
why have u done this to me. u knw im busy. ive been nice so far. but i cant take it anymore. time passes by and u wonder why. im nt gonna lie. u mean nthing to me.]
-baby. u're my only 1 *blush*-
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YSaturday, May 14, 2005
today was.. erm... fun. star struck. saw a few of spore's on celebs. all at 1 place. bumped into jamie teo shopping for shoes wif her mom.. saw fiona xie, jeff wang, ben and some other female celeb [dunno her name] hanging at food court. haha..
feeling kinda tired today. i think i lack of slp. been working.. wonder hw sharmaine and gang can stay so alive when they work even longger den i do..
dunno why.. i feel stressed suddenly.. [[chil.. chill.. chill.. damn it. i cant chill! this sux]]
i think all girls or most girls do agree wif wat lindsay lohan once said. "i feel insecure being in a relationship becos u fear tt u'll lose him." sometimes.. i do agree wif wat she said too.. i guess tt shows i dun have much confidence in myself..
-its nice to have some1 who cares for me lyk u do. tts u-
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YFriday, May 13, 2005
survivor's on nw. nt paying attention. tokin to u is more impt den anything. hee.. yes. u took over tv's position. surprised? haha.. so u juz suggested a pretty gd idea on hw i can gradually forgt the experience of erm.. nt a lifetime. horror. hahah.. im hoping this suggestion u juz gave works. we'll work hard together yea? yes. i juz stole ur line. hee..
dun feel lyk working on tue. no1's working on tue other the dead bert and siying. i'll pass. take it as im taking a break. haha.. fr mon on.. dead bert is taking over. he's in charge. shit. we're screwed. i dun care. he piss me or any1 else off.. he's gonna get it fr me and auntie meg. dead bert. u make me sick.
so edwin said he wants me to love him lyk hw i love my baby. sorry. i cant do it. i juz dun feel a thing for edwin. give it up edwin! he's no u. im statisfied wif wat i gt. hee..
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YThursday, May 12, 2005
yes. im loving u more each day. i cant hide tt [hw i feel] anymore. so, im missing u everyday. beat it baby. haha.. im reserving u for the rest of my life. nobody is allowed to take u away fr me. hehe.. so i knw we're suppose to keep things low and im bloggin abt u here. chill. i nv state who u are! haha.. im so smart. heh heh. *bleah! im so happy having u by my side!!! kisskiss. haha..
so... every1's happy. every1's in love. aww! cupids are definately doing their job lately. haha..
act... im kinda worried abt sch. im worried tt i'll lose u. i do trust u. but.. things can happen. and im so scared. sounds crazy. but i dunno wat am i to do wifout u. oh gosh. i cant believe i feel this way..
-im blessed to have u-
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YTuesday, May 10, 2005
i juz checked the functions for e680 out. my gosh. the functions totally rocks. so its gonna be a lil heavy.. but i dun care. i love tt phone to death. haha.. gonna order it. my gosh.. its gonna cost me quite alot.. guess.. drumming gotta be postponed again. shit. why do my phone have to spoil nw. and why do the phone tt i lyk nw be so ex.
so.. no work again tml = boredom. today was exciting. haha.. seeing u was great. den.. i went over to wen's place wif rosa. dyed my hair = change of color. dark brown wif a hint of purple. love it. but wen's nt used to it. haha.. dunno if i shud get my hair cut nw. maybe i wun. save money. buy my new baby. e680. ha.
ok.. solitaire showdown wif wen nw. ciaoz!
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YMonday, May 09, 2005
oh my gosh. some1.. save me!! save me from boredom!! jessie juz called to tell me tt i dun have to go back to work today. she has nthing for me to do for today. argh... i need money. i need something to do. i rather be working my ass off den sitting ard at home doing nthing. i knw its juz 15 more days to sch.. but damn it! 15 more days seems lyk 15 more months right now. sitting ard really slows ur time dwn.
wanna go back to slp. but im too awake to. i have to gt pass today. at least. ive gt my day planned out for tml already. and hopefully for the rest of the week.. i'll be working. melissa's online.. she doesnt have to work too..
did i mention? iloveuiloveuiloveuiloveuiloveuiloveuiloveu! hee.. yes. i knw. im goin crazy. who cares. boredom drives me nuts. it kills my brain cells.
yes. iloveu!
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YSunday, May 08, 2005
work tml! yea! cant wait to start working again. it kills boredom. hee.. so things are goin my way lately. love it. love everything. hee...
dad's gone to taipei today. for work of cos. i wanna follow!!! i wanna play!! heard their theme parks rock man. haha... roller coasters. scary rides. blah blah.. coloring of hair are damn cheap too.. wah! hw could dad leave me here. bring me! bring me! sadly. mom is still in spore. if she went wif dad to taipei.. oh my gosh.. den i'll be free! haha..
16 more days til sch starts for me. *claps* and.. 11 more days to orientation. exciting. i feel lyk a kid again. looking fwd to sch.
went to buy jon's prezzie yest. wif mommy of cos. den.. suzanne ho fr cna wanted to interview me abt mother's day. but im sorry. im camera shy. haha.. as if. i juz dun wanna appear on news. so stupid. plus.. i looked lyk crap yest. dressed dwn too..
i miss cheryl!! quek quek!! i miss u to bits! cant wait for u to be back. hee..
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YFriday, May 06, 2005
im stucked home again. nt working today. again. i cant go on doing nothing. i force myself to sleep til late again. i cant go on lyk this anymore. i need to do something. lazing around sucks. i dun lyk it. seriously. im still counting down the days to the time sch actually starts.
being in a new sch. means. new environment. new faces. new personalities. new beginning to something. gd or bad? i dunno. im afraid. im nervous. im anticipating.
for someone so young and naive. hard to knw wat to believe. still i thot i'd try for awhile. turning round and giving up's not my style. on my own. on my own way
bottled up is where my fears go. i will never show my fear. they'll tear me up til my tears show. all smoke and mirrors
just try hard. dont give in. keep it up and you'll win. dont let them know tt they gt to u. put on a brave face and u'll get through
this journey of ours never ends. we will alwaz pretend. fighting nt falling into our own illusions
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YThursday, May 05, 2005
so.. nw i knw exactly hw he feels abt me. but.. he doesnt have confidence.. ok.. i didnt want to cry.. but i couldnt hold back my tears. bottling up emotions aint gd. it almost tore me up. and i juz had to let it all go..
today's wen's bday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL! hee.. went out to celeb. it was fun. shopping. movie. house of wax! wah.. nice show. nt scary. but disgusting. haha... wen wasted 8 bucks. she covered her eyes for lyk wat? almost half of the movie? haha.. even joyced freaked out. damn it. it aint scary.
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YWednesday, May 04, 2005
i miss him bad.
i wanna see him bad.
i hope u feel the same too...
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i was late for work. couldnt get myself out of the hse this morning. cant help it. im tired. was at wen's bday party.. it was fun esp for reaching home so late [every1 was goin to bed and gt disturbed by me openin the door. oops!]... and tiring of cos.. all the heavy stuffs and everything...
anywaz. my 1 and only [i knw it sounds wrong to call him tt. but who cares] is sick. poor thing.. im so worried.. he's sick in a weird way. wanna vomit but cant. giddy. fever. hmm.. wat kinda illness is tt man. hw i wish i could take care of him rite nw..
its funny hw he was worried abt me juz yest.. and today.. its my turn. haha..
so.. siying, michelle and i were chatting abt relationships today. we seem to have the same view on things. i mean. almost everything abt relationships. wow. haha.. den.. i realised tt my life's been kinda interesting. haha.. interesting in the sense on hw peeps in my life links. so.. gerald [ex] is dating wena [fren]. den.. gerald [ex] is fren of sean [ex. still in love wif].. den.. marilyn [fren] is ex of sean. haha.. complicating/confusing. but interesting huh.
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YSunday, May 01, 2005
yest was a boring day.. spent half a day at granny's place. late aftnoon to nite.. had headache last nite.. it was nice tt he was worried and tried to make me feel better by doing the muachx muachx thingy.. cute. haha..
mom's pms-ing today again.. argh.. had to go thru today's routine. as usual. church. home. maybe out for a short while den home again. boring! no excitement. haha.. met kenneth at church today. he finally appeared aft a long long time... chat wif him for awhile..
tml.. wen's party.. yea! finally something fun. something diff fr everyday. haha... sean's nt sure if he's goin for her party tml yet. but i knw he's worried abt me having to back home late at nite by myself tml.. sweet. he did asked me if i want him to go. dun u think the ans is kinda obvious. its lyk a yes for sure! hee... hecty's nt sure if he's goin too.. he's gt sch on tue tts why. if he's going.. cheryl will be going. wen wants him to bring cheryl along. u cant possibly ask me to tag along wif them rite? so weird! haha...
watching ice age nw. the baby is so cute! and its so sweet hw the elephant and the small lil fellow protects the baby lyk its own. im so touched. *tears* haha.. scratch is cute too.. he and his akon. haha..
i better go eat bananas nw.. before mommy is gonna start yelling at me over bananas.. menopause sux...
you're my immortal
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