YSunday, July 31, 2005
the carnival we went to yest.. was stupid! hahaa.. nthing much to do thr... but thr was this stall tt really caught our eye. its called "horrors of hell".. haha.. obviously.. we went to check it out. spent lyk 3 bucks at the stall... total waste of money. it WASNT SCARY AT ALL!!!!! and thr was this girl who gt frightened til she cried. i wonder hw... i mean.. everything in thr were so predictable.. nw tt its over.. i pity this guy [the 1 who hid in the coffin].. haha.. cheryl and i boo-ed him back and caryn poked his head... haha... and i almost tripped in the room. it was so dark!! we couldnt see whr we whr going. but we could see the "dead" [they were holding torch light goin abt scaring peeps in the room].. so lame. haha.. aft tt.. caryn n i gt henna done. our's were done by a malay woman. cool... hee..
hmm.. today... nah... nthing much happen.. same old routine... boring..
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YSaturday, July 30, 2005
its sat... going out again. without mom n dad. haa! ok.. did tt last wk already... this wk too.. meeting cheryl quekie and caryn ltr... we're goin for a carnival... and its raining nw. and i dunno hw are we gonna play thr. hmm... aft carnival, i'll be stuck wif either caryn or cheryl and her fren [fr cambodia].. hmmm... who shud i choose.. we'll see.
i feel bad disturbing him [he's doing his proj nw].. but i wanna tok to him... torn between 2. haha.. ive gt c.math test this coming wed... shit. and on tue.. i end sch at 3plus, 4. shit. argh... luckily... deadline for my stinky proj is being postponed to fri! yea!! but i need help fr rita [lai wan] again.. and more tutorial work to do.. so much work to do.. so lil time.
ok.. gotta go gt ready nw... ciaoz!
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YWednesday, July 27, 2005
bloggin fr sch again.. having my break nw... suppose to be doing my bloody proj for database.. i gave up. so many errors!!!!! argh... im pissed wif it nw. haa!
hmm.. pass few days... things seem to be going ok... well.. tts cos... im de only soul ard at home [and ok.. sometimes wif mom ard].. other den tt.. either they're out or at work. well.. i muz say... thank god for bf and gd frenz... haha.. and of cos.. my girlfren.. i love them so much! hee... okok.. i love my bf and my gf more. heh. thx for being ard..
anywaz. today! ive gt a test! something lyk oral test. goodness... normally.. i'd be pretty confident abt it.. BUT!!! this test involves my grp members too.. we do this test together as a grp. fuck. ive gt a bad feeling abt this man... hopefully.. they do nt drag my ass dwn wif them...
bumped into baby on the bus this morn. suprising. he said he didnt want to come to sch early today.. but he did. haha.. he couldnt slp again. oh no... im so worried abt him.. he lacks of slp... he's been waking up real early for nthing... he needs rest.. so worried he'll fall sick...
ok.. nthing much happened.. cant wait for tml.. im meeting cheryl quekie.. miss her!!!!!!!
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YSaturday, July 23, 2005
jz gt home abt an hr ago... spent my whole aftnoon with twang today... went shopping in town.. took neoprints, eat lunch n dinner together and twang gt her eyebrows shaped at browhaus too. den.. we bumped into mom and dad during dinner time when we were on our way to yoshi at taka for dinner. we bumped into them at pasta cafe [i think tts the name of the cafe.. haha..]. we are so broke nw.. shopped too much. hahah... hmm let me see.. wat did we buy...
me:
1. a chain for mommy fr perlini
2. a pair of earrings fr perlini [its round n flapped? dunno hw to describe. heh]
3. a stripped polo tee fr topshop
4. new undies
5. coca cola file
6. a notebook fr taka [cost me 9 bucks. goodness. but i love it. hee..]
twang:
1. 2 pairs of shorts fr topshop
2. new undies
3. coca cola file
4. the same notebook as me
er... i think tts all for her.. haha.. cant rmb.
ive gt a blue black nw.. courtousy of twang... she pinched me for no freaking reason! hmm.. wait.. her reason for pinching me....... is.... becos some guy has the mp3 she wanted... goodness me..
hmm.. im officially out of the run for ms17. im cool wif it. aftall.. im nt interested in it. haha...
im tired nw... had a fun fun day... hee..
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YThursday, July 21, 2005
sch was pretty relaxing today. did nthing much. den went to town wif junjun to shop. looked lyk a mamasan aft tt.. 1 big bag of stuffs fr esprit [mostly wen's] and my big sch bag on de other side. goodness.. i even had prbs getting dwn the bus. haha... dunno if im meeting baby tml.. im still waiting for him to call me again.
avril gt thru to the semi finals [ms 17] already... shameen told me. gd for her... she's really pretty. and she's fr tp. am proud of her. hee..
next week... the truth of our term test will be out! oh no!! i dun dare to look at my results. haha... im frightened... oh gosh...
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YWednesday, July 20, 2005
thx for being thr baby - when i need u. love.
im feeling much better...
so he made mom n i his maids. we have to clear up aft him, clear up for him. do every single thing for him. wat an asshole. helo! u're so fucking free.. all u can do is to sit ard and do nthing. juz laze, and u cant do simple thing lyk clearing ur own fucking plate? u call urself a man. guess wat. u're nt behaving lyk 1.
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a million thots are running thru my brains nw... dunno why.. im feeling so fucking depressed all out of a sudden. it seems lyk depression is getting to me. i feel lyk cry.. but i cant. im in sch. i need u. will u be here?
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YMonday, July 18, 2005
the music tts playing on perfect 10 is annoying. pissing me off for sure. so cheryl cheered me up quite a lil today. thx girl. i gt chosen to participate ms 17. im nt excited at all. aft all.. it isnt my thing. oh wellz. a new challenge. i'll juz accept it. ive got to attend some stupid makeover class tml. waste of time. argh... a few things are really bugging me. argh! i wanna scream it all out. like wat good charlotte sang "its easier to runaway". so true. i have no idea hw am i to break the news to baby. im worried he'll freak..
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YSunday, July 17, 2005
so i thot things at hm were bad enough... but i was wrong.. things gt worst. things are falling apart again.
no matter how hard they try
and no matter how loud they cry
they cant buy their way up to heaven
no matter how hard they try
and no matter how high they climb up the ladder
they wont reach up to heaven
and they cant see the innocent lives
the pointless suffering
and in my heart i wanna undo all this murder
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YFriday, July 15, 2005
all lies and bullshit
being in this world is murder
stabbed through the heart
i bleed as i breathe
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YThursday, July 14, 2005
spent practically the whole day wif baby again.. its so nice... hee.. baby gt jealous over shawniee today... it was scary at 1st.. cos it seems lyk he didnt want to tok to me cos of shawniee.. den it became a gd thing. he loves me so much! hahaha.. i love u too my sweet pea! hee..
gonna meet him again tml.. cant wait. hee..
im still doing my programming proj. i havent gt my report and storyboard completed for my animation yet. oh no!!!! to make things worst. i left 1 criteria out... shit! wanna add.. but i cant find a place for it. shit shit shit shit... 1 prb aft another. thx JL for fixing the previous prb! hee..
so! toking abt proj.. i've gt the MOST!! MOST!! incooperative grp on earth! fuck these people. 4 members in a grp. 2 are working de other 2.. COULD NOT BE BOTHERED. jun jun and i had to cover de other 2's individual job [its a combi of grp work n individual work] so we can proceed... argh! heck. im doing this for myself. i want my score. they chose nt to have theirs. it aint my prb.
sweet pea.. i miss u!! call me!!!
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YWednesday, July 13, 2005
met cheryl n caryn today.. yep. they're back.. missed them. as usual. took loads of neoprints. were suppose to buy earrings but we couldnt find any nice ones n ended up buying mags. den went for ice cream and next was dinner at crystal jade. yummy...
its wed already and i havent finish doing my proj. i found the cloud ive alwaz needed but in order to gt it into my animation.. thrs a long process. hopefully it'll work. it better work or i'll be so screwed.
gotta go back to sch tml. database proj. ah. fuck it. baby's picking me up tml.. hee.. cant wait to see him. i miss him.. so.. pei kee bombarded me wif qus when she found out tt i was dating baby. [baby's her ex classmate] and it was pretty cute hw she reacted to it... jumped up n dwn. up n dwn. hahaha.. spring. tts wat comes to mind. hahaha..
i think im coming dwn wif a flu soon. oh no...
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YTuesday, July 12, 2005
oh my gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! both laine n joanne aren't excited abt attending good charlotte's concert... damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if u dun wanna go, den gimme ur tix!!!! dun go thr unwillingly... here u are.. having the tix.. nt happy abt going for the concert.. here i am.. dying to go... argh.......
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waiting waiting waiting.. still waiting for your msg.. msg me!!! quick!!! im goin crazy!!! i miss u hon!!!!
been spending loads of time wif baby.. hee.. love it. love love love love! haha.. oops. anywaz.. am suppose to be at good charlotte's concert rite nw. am suppose to be jumping along wif the music. am suppose to be screaming. am suppose to be going crazy over joel madden fr good charlotte. am suppose to be singing along wif joel madden to good charlotte's songs. ahh! fuck it. i wanna be thr!!! yes!! and AM SUPPOSE TO BE SNAPPING LOADS OF PICS OF GOOD CHARLOTTE. oh damn it...
baby!! msg me!!!!! ahh!!!!!!! *jumps up n down*
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YSunday, July 10, 2005
this is so unfair... elaine gets to go for good charlotte's noise to the world concert. her dad juz gt her the tix. fuck. i wanna go too!! hw come my dad isnt as sweet to buy me the tix. wait. why am i asking this qus. and mom? juz have to say no to me goin for this concert. argh... of all concerts.. why this???? u let me go for avril's and other celebs concert.. but why nt good charlotte?!!!!!! they're nice lil guys.. they wun bully me!! damn it. guess.. im juz nt fated to meet joel madden...
i need inspirations... haha.. havent gt my programming proj done yet. well.. gt it done PARTIALLY and deadline's next week. guess wat? i hate wat i've done for my proj!! i need to change it. its stupid, nothing outstanding and presentable. if i dun change it in time, im gonna fail. so.. CHANGE!!!
im all burnt. went to sentosa wif mom n wen for tanning yest. hmm... cant really say i turned darker... juz a lil change. but im all red.. lobster! hon.. dun eat me up. dun wanna become shit tts being flushed dwn the toilet bowl. haa. somebody was getting married yest.. beach wedding kinda thing. nice everything cept for the decos hanging on the tree n the flowers on the table. gosh.. those 2.. can kill every other nice lil details.. in future... i want a beach wedding too!! haha.. den dressings whudden be so formal. dun wanna wear heels. i'll wear flip flops! haa! yes i knw dad will kill me.. so?! im still gonna wear flip flops! den all the beautiful flowers... nice decos on the coconut trees... nice live music... wow. *dreams* hee..
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YSaturday, July 09, 2005
i love my boyfriend. girls.. hands off... or i'll break ur fingers. haa!
yes.. i love him... to bits! hee... happy 1omths sweety...
thx for tolerating all my shit.
we'll do silly things together for the rest of the time. haha...
den we'll run to i dunno whr... so daddy whudden kill u.
and have babies.. a boy n a girl. hee..
we'll live happily ever after...
i drift, i burn, i fly
when u sing lullaby
im helpless n yearning
like honey in your hands
and i fright dream, i cry
when you take me on a roller coaster ride
you see me through and through
you see juz who i am
juz take my hand and
save me from this place
heaven knows im falling
for you my sweet embrace
heaven knows ive been waiting for you
i had a dream that i was falling from the sky
at 90 miles an hour
i was bound to crash n die
but out of nowhere
you came and rescue me
there must be some brace, the touch of your face
im so happy that i found you
no longer afraid
before i met you
life was slow-mo
so slow-mo
i thought i had it all figured out
then u came and turn my whole world upside down
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YThursday, July 07, 2005
today's the last day of term test... made a really careless mistake for c.math.. 10marks gone.. juz lyk tt!! shit..
mixture of emotions again.. i dunno why.. gosh.. i need ans...
isnt it ironic?
its lyk rain on your wedding day
its a free ride when you already paid
its a good advice but u juz cant take
life's a funny thing
something is sneaking up when everything is ok
then everything goes right
life is a funny thing
when something starts to go wrong
everything starts to blow up in your face
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YWednesday, July 06, 2005
today's paper was total crap. left early... haha.. today's baby's last paper.. lucky him... nvm.. juz 1 more day.. tml!!!! den term test will be over for me..
its funny... baby's so anxious abt having kids. hahaha.. cute. we both want a girl n a boy. hee...
my thumb is super itchy... stupid mosquitoes... suckers... argh.. term break is coming.. time to gt a pedicure done... by myself of cos.. any kind souls??? wanna pay for me???? i wanna go to a nail salon.. haha...
okie! studying time!! back to studying.. yes.. i'll be geeky!!!!!! haa!
will you still love me if you dun see me?
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YMonday, July 04, 2005
juz came hm fr sch... baby acc me home. hee... programming test sux. its either i'll fail it or it'll be a juz pass kinda grade for me... sad.
its been awhile since baby last held my waist and stuff lyk tt... i feel so protected, secure, blah blah blah.. sweet. hee...
rosa n i are still trying to persuade mom to let me attend good charlotte's concert. hopefully.. she'll allow this time.. i really really wanna go!!! *keeps fongers crossed*
its lyk in the movies whr we fall in love for the 1st time
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YSaturday, July 02, 2005
spent practically the whole day wif rosa. she's at my place still.. mom n dad arent at home. currently at grandma's place.. been studying. i dunno if i can say ive been studying act... nthin seem to be goin in [to my brain]. did my database worksheet. my lecturer didnt want to give us ans to it. she expects us to gt ans fr her personally [wif our ans attached to the worksheet of cos]. argh... if i were to gt it fr her next week, it'll be too late and i cant guarantee myself tt i'll be able to bump into her. argh.... wanna send my work to her thru email, but i cant gt her email add! oh fuck!!! this isnt goin well...
okok.. gonna go practise my c.math nw... need to do extremely well for c.math..
depression is getting to me.
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YFriday, July 01, 2005
simplicity brings happiness.. im sticking by this phrase [still]. dun u think its really thru... aft goin thru lotsa things... esp watever is happening and happened at home made me grow loads. david noticed it.
having lessons mw. lab. super boring... fallin asleep soon n have been feeling pretty tired. long long day.. its almost de end of sch. im nt excited AT ALL. i dun feel lyk goin home. but i gotta. fuck.
-needs u ard-
sweety.. lets run. i wanna run away from here. take me anywhr but here.
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