simplicity

2006-07-20T04:46:00.000-07:00

Moved

a new page. hopefully, a better life with u comes with it too...

2006-07-17T04:26:00.000-07:00

1st half of the day went pretty well. lessons was fun [amazingly.. ok other den 1st period whr i gt really pissed with my tutor] den.. aft lessons, met prissay n we went for a manicure. haha... and.. we went back to sch, met up with hbb n guys to do our stupid proj which we ended up laughing away. work was done.. but nt as hard as we shud be working. DEN! its was back to shopping with prissay again. haha.. bought nthing. both of us were trying to save money. ok.. erm.. she ended up spending alot of money. she did her brows too, took cab to tm n back to sch. so u knw why nw? hah..

ok.. so the next half of the day didnt went well. maybe its juz me. oh well. met this couple which reminded me of hw much the romance between baby n i have faded away. i mean... when a couple are together for long, romance will bound to fade away even thou u still love 1 and another. tt made me upset for a lil while. i mean... i miss those days whr its all sweet honey coated days. gosh. i really really miss those days n i knw it wun come back. honeymoon period is sooo over for us. juz look at us nw. other den msn [which really depends when n hw long he can use the comp for], we hardly speak to each other with more than 10 sentences. nt tt we have nthing to tok abt anymore. its juz.. nt toking? anywaz.. den.. we used to meet up lyk wat? at least 3 times a week. lyk literally meet. nt lyk nw.. we still see each other often. but its more lyk hi! im bumping into u. sorta thing. or sweety.. here's ur notes. n its lyk tts it for the day. i dun feel pressured or watever. its juz tt... I MISS THOSE DAYS! *pouts* but its ok. this is part n partial of life rite? nw tt he's hp line is officially cut off till he pays off his bills again... its gonna be a prob for me to contact him. =(( when i say i promise to be ur understanding girl alwaz, i will do it. i really promise. so feel no pressure yar?

ok.. its time to do my proj nw. deadline's coming. oh gosh. ive gt french tml. AGAIN.. i dread it..

2006-07-14T08:28:00.000-07:00

my ANTI people!!!! somebody's looking for trouble here... i think u all can figure out who tt person is... [HINT: _________ ________ bear..] bloody bitch. dun think i can figure out who u are rite? too bad. ur own eng busted u. tried to look for some1 else to tag with better eng, too bad. we figured tt out too. i tried to leave u alone. i didnt want to start a war. u knw i hate wars. rite nw.. u're forcing me to the edge of the cliff. too bad, i wun jump. im stupid u knw. u're worst of den me. haa. n no... i wun fight u cos im a civilised person. unlike u. childish woman. i cant believe u'll treat all ur frenz lyk tt. GOSH! so much for treating u as my buddy. anywaz.. im glad i gt to see who u really are before its too late.

2006-07-13T04:15:00.000-07:00

isnt photos like this so nice? i want to take a photo like this myself. as in.. im 1 of them kissing. haha.. so cool... hmm.. i think, i wun gt to take such pics anytime soon. i doubt baby wants to. oh well..

wen n i are gonna go watch hecty perform tml. haha.. he'll be singing for his sch concert thingy. gosh. i cant believe im gonna step into cj. so weird. haha.. can he perform outside cj so i dun have to go in? haha.. hmm.. im gonna try to take photos. so.. check back to see if any photo is taken. heh.

ok.. im gonna go back to playing maple nw. ciaoz!

2006-07-11T03:13:00.000-07:00

Disappoint was the word of the day for today.

Current word of the day?

Desire

oh well. am watching oprah show rite nw. wats on? the fantasy wedding. WOW. wat touched me most abt it? the love story. hw the couple met, the love they have for each other, etc. awww... was almost moved to tears i muz say. people alwaz say tt once a couple have been together for long, romance starts to fade. i wonder hw this couple mantain their romance. ok, oprah's gonna start again soon. ciaoz!

oh btw, im gonna start a web business i guess. will start planning n everything once i have the time. ok, oprah time!!!

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yucks. this fellow tt i cant stand, HAS A SIMILAR BLOG ADD! dammmmmnnnit

edited again//
disappointment hits me once again. twice in a day nw. fuck.

2006-07-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

ok, my mood's pretty spoilt at the moment. dun ask why. argh. anywaz.. im feeling better thx to the lovely letter cheryl wrote to me. aww... u mean the world to me too girl! loves.

oh n i gt the veronica's cd already. YAY! thx aunt! heh.. n they're leaving for aust tml. i cant wait for my turn. =) im so excited! oh n as for my birkies, ive decided to gt brownish gold instead. its much easier to match. its almost as rare as the 1 i wanted initially. juz 1 extra person having it. soooo.. i guess its alrite rite? haha.. ok, im gonna find some random thing to do nw.

2006-07-08T20:49:00.000-07:00

its 9th of july nw. something's wrong with my blog timing. happy 88 weeks anni baby. i wonder if u'll wish me too. anywaz. its a bad bad idea to gt my ear pierced at whr i gt it pierced. im so clumsy!! which means, i keep hitting it by accident. even leaning on my pillow will hurt my ear. fuck. is my ear to flappy or is the earring too huge? oh well.. at least it looks nice. haa...

gosh, im so sleepy. juz gt home fr church. i wanna take a nap so badly but i scared once i do, i wun sleep in the rite direction, and will be busted by mom or dad abt my new piercing. damn it. so for the welfare of my ear. I MUZ! RESIST THE TEMPTATION TO SLEEP. or at least, find a new position to slp [which will nt bust me] and stay in tt position till i wake up. hmm.. maybe, i'll sit n slp instead. haa..

diane's bday is coming. dunno if i shud gt her the kids birkies or crocs. she lyks them. if im gonna gt them for her, means, her pressie will be delayed cos me, being the bloody cheapo, am gonna import them in. hey! its so much cheaper by 19 bucks ok. hmm.. unless i share cost with mom, den i'll be able to gt her crocs. but!!!! mom thinks its too ex. gosh. i dunno man...

2006-07-08T07:03:00.000-07:00

the birkeis tt i want.. comments plz!!! and order for me too!! im a size 36

tts the reflection of me, pris n mich. try spotting! haa..

i gt my ear pierced today. the highest stud. im happy.

i was suppose to hang with cheryl n her bestie today. but things happened and i ended up with my bestie instead. so i met twang n her fam at bugis, walked ard, den go gt our ears pierced together. aft tt, it was town-ing time. walked ard with her fam till dinner time. her fam left n we went for our dinner at ambush. YUM! haa.. walked ard again. went to birkies, saw tt coloured sandals. I LOVE IT!!! ive decided to gt birkies nw. i mean... so far, i only saw 1 person wearing tt! haa.. so its gd to buy. heh... as for my double tongue sneakers, i'll gt tt aft my trip. for.. sem 2 of yr 2. haha.. mom thinks tt the colour's nice. n twang thinks it fits me. yay!

ok.. i wanna play maple nw. ciaoz!

2006-07-06T02:18:00.000-07:00

baby juz left my place. so wanted to kidnap him so i can have him with me everyday.. muahahahaha... i love falling asleep with him. hee.. =)

ok. so my heat rash isnt getting any better its spreading a lil. nw my arm has the rash too. fuck. i dun care, it muz heal by tml man... im suppose to go tanning with cheryl n her best fren. argh.. my rash is so itchy!!! im trying so hard nt to scratch. argh...

im gonna go get ready to bathe nw.

2006-07-05T07:44:00.000-07:00

ive gt the pics already. any1 who wants it, ask fr me. i'll send them to u. i cant load it onto spaces. spaces broke dwn AGAIN. goodness me... i'll try to load it soon. ok i need to go gt my stuffs printed nw. ciaoz!

oh. ive gt heat rash. fuck. looks gross. damn.

2006-07-04T09:20:00.000-07:00

back home for quite awhile already... met bro n the rest for dinner. bro's treat [thx bro!]. muahaha.. its his bday celeb. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE NG!!!! A.K.A MY BRUDDDER.... =)))) as the photos, we'll have to wait for my sadistic twin to send. haa. so... chase him for it!!! haha..

anywaz, ive decided to go to sch tml. haha... was having thots of skipping tml's lessons. TOOOOOO LOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGG. gosh. but den again, ive gt nthing to do at home and ive got a lab test coming up. so! i better attend my lab lessons. i dun wish to fail. heh.

ok. im sleepy. gonna go to bed soon. oh yar. juz in case u people thot ive broken up with baby. nono.. we didnt.. previous entry was abt people lyk ___________ [come ask me if u wanna knw]. haa.. too many weird people reading my blog. so till i set a password here, the most private thots will be changed entries lyk the previous ones.

2006-07-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

im so fucking sleepy but im nt goin to bed yet. im still on the phone with twang n hoping baby is gonna tok to me too. he juz started toking n he juz stopped. dota. games are alwaz more impt den their gfs for guys isnt it? ok. cept for those who dun play games. haa.. lucky u... anywaz. i gt home only abt 10. met cheryl, our moms and caryn for dinner. den went off to meet tian, jolin n eugene aft tt. heh. oh n i gt my bag today. so fucking broke. im only left with 5 bucks. yep. time to starve. i need to save money fast. haa

gt french class tml. *snores* i dunno why but french class is becoming really boring these days. damn... wat happened to the cute lil fairy godmother as my tutor? haha.. frankly speaking, i cant wait for this semester to end. so fucking draggy. feel lyk im gonna die in sch or something. i miss being in the same class as pris n mich. they make me smile. =) i miss having a timetable which fits perfectly with baby's. its so nice having him to go to sch with me n back home together too. aww... haha... i miss those days. oh well.. am nt gonna see him tml. he's gt no sch tml. ok. its a self-declared sch hol for him. i wish i could do tt too but... ive gt french! cant skip tt anymore. damn! oh well.. ok. im so tired. i wanna go rest nw. nite people!

see ya - the anti grp tml! =))

2006-07-02T04:42:00.000-07:00

i kept my mouth shut from the start, i guess it kept u in the dark. i thot u knew but u dont. u said u love me but u wun even find out who i am. i kept my mouth shut for too long, all these time u gt me wrong nw we're in this way too far. i wun keep my mouth shut anymore, i had my share ive closen doors. nw im nt afraid, i knw exactly wat u say but im sorry its too late

will you take me away from here?

2006-07-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

flag day. haa.. didnt do. we went n pris didnt. she's nt ok. swollen face. poor girl. anywaz. the charity organisation themselves were late. *faint* i could have slept for another hr u knw!!! gosh. but its ok. mich n i ended up having breakfast at mac. Its been so long since i had mac. yummy!! haa... den we went to collect our tins and it was movie time!!! haha.. we walked all the way fr tangs to cineplex. sorta argued in a friendly way abt wat movie to watch. haha.. superman or R.V.. guess wat. when we reached thr... we didnt gt to watch any 1 of them. why? cos superman was either sold out or filling fast - means front seats. no thx. neck tired. haa.. [thr was superman, and superman digital] and R.V? nt even available thr. gosh. so wat did we watch? Silen Hill. nice. ok.. pretty erm.. santanic act. they keep pressing god but they practice killing. wtf. i love the part when the lil girl was dancing in raining blood. hahaha... nice! ok.. nt scary, kinda funny act [hw the "monster" was suppose to kill the woman but looks lyk they're dancing instead] overall, its juz ok.

met godma n baby aft tt. hee.. godma was alone shopping but i have a date with baby ltr during the day.. so i had to ditch godma to go meet him. sorry!!! i miss my baby lah. cant help it. hee.. yea.. so we went to gt my stuffs [more likely mom's stuffs - her alphabet stickers] den bank in money [but the machine sorta broke dwn]. haa.. oh n we bumped into shawniee liew. its been ages since i last saw him. he looks lyk he's gt a mini afro nw. so aft all tt, we went back to amk together.

ok.. case study time!! byee!!

2006-06-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

so. i gt bored yest and i decided to do this.

iTunes' playing forever

den thr's baby n me n erm.. temp babies. my oranges. haa. awwwww

my new tee.. cool huh. haha.. i loveeeeee it!!! yea.. n this tee, almost gt me into trouble. ok. so nt exactly trouble. more lyk mommy will go bonkers. ok, nt a bad way. erm.. more lyk whoo.. she has a new victim to her bullying. hahaa... yea. who else. baby will be her new victim if she finds out abt him. haa..

anywaz. my feet's sore. n ive got to do flag day tml. RAH!!!!! dun lyk flag days. i knw its helping the needy but. aft all the controversies on NKF. seriously. plus i find its a total waste of time too. gosh. i mean.. approaching sporeans, den they juz walk away. ok, so i knw i do tt too cos THR'S TOO MANY FLAG DAYS ARD. TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE FORCED TO DO IT. so nt meaningful anymore. goodness.. oh well, if it werent for the stupid rule abt nt being to graduate if we dun do at least 1 volunteery work. and apparantly we only have this flag day arranged by my care person. oh well..

ok.. i wanna go do a lil of my proj den go slp. im tired.

2006-06-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

as u can see.. ive changed my blogskin once again. comments plz!!! tag them. heh. my previous skin screwed up. the buttons when missing. weird. so i had to change or this blog will become really redundant

met cheryl n twang today. twang sent her phone for repair den walked ard town. ltr on, we went to look for eugene. dun be jealous bro!!! even thou ive gt a twin nw, i havent forgotten u ok. reserved a bag fr eug's. damn nice!!! damn ex oso. 56 bucks. thank goodness for discount. i only have to pay 44 bucks. heh heh.. im already broke so for the next few days, i gotta eat lesser. bring food to sch!! no spending of my allowance. haaa..

im suppose to save for my double tongue sneakers and a new hoodie.. nw, im splurging it on a bag. gosh. but i really lyk the bag ok!!! oh well.. n thrs only 4 pieces. all 4 are being reserved [including mine of cos]. so u see. its UNIQUE! haha..

im feeling so hot but i cant let the fan face and blow me. y? cos of my bloody eyes, it cant stand the wind. it dries my eye up cosing it to have irritation. fuck.

2006-06-27T23:50:00.000-07:00

goodness me.. the lvl 5's comp is so fucking slow. it take ages to load a page n guess wat. once its done loading, thr'll be at least an error. for eg, my blog. my pic of the layout, is MISSING! gosh. im so bored. im still waiting for my turn to do the evaluation with mf. its taking too long. *sulks*

baby's probably at home nw. he came to sch for lyk wat? 15mins. hahaha... total waste of time huh? too bad. he needs to come for attendence. poor boy.

i miss the club members LAH!!!! my loves, muz meet up soon ok??? lets go drink n chat the night away. haa.. den again, maybe nt go drink cos im so bloody broke. ive declared bankruptcy already. heh..

ok, so ive gt a new wish list, some old items are still in thr. hey. i havent gt them so im nt slashing it away ok. haa..

i cant wait for sept to come. IM GOING TO AUST! YAY!!!! people, shopping list muz come to me ok. money too. ive gt to pay for some of my own shopping so yar. juz gimme SGD. will change them for u to help u guys gt ur stuffs.

ok. i need to go nw. ciaoz!

2006-06-27T07:11:00.000-07:00

omg. im so lazy... i cant bring myself to do anything.. ok. let me see wat i muz do. print my proj stuffs out, burn my proj into a cd, print my notes for sch tml and update ipod. gosh. lazy lazy me.

anywaz. i gt to meet baby today. im a happy girl. hee.. love u. =) it was funny hw he gt shocked when he saw me today becos of the way i dressed. no.. i wasnt in a clown suit. juz diff. i wore my capri, my new mng top n with spags inside [cos mng is pretty low cut n i dun wanna flash my boobs]. yep. im nt in a tee n some super casual pants or jeans. haa.. so obviously, baby will be shock. heh. and i cant wait for my movie date with him. haha.. baby's gonna go watch scary movie 4 with me. YAY! =)

ok. i really need to go do my stuffs nw.

2006-06-26T10:35:00.000-07:00

its 1 plus almost 2am nw, im nt sleepy n ive gt sch at 10 in the morn. so means, i gotta wake up at 8 n im still awake. shit. ok. so baby n i are toking abt his dogs [a female n a male]. haha.. i knw. wat a topic. but they're so cute lah. it all started with a qus fr me. "if tiny's a boy, hw come they dun fuck?" hahaha... yea.. so. both his dogs are act, a couple. SO CUTE!!!! ahhaha.. and... tiny [the male] will act protect his lover [lyk mad mind u]... AWWWWWW!!!!!!! see.. love exist in dog world too. =) n baby.. i really think she's gonna freeze!! so poor thing. hahaa.. ok. i think he's gonna call me silly girl again. haaa.. and we're nw toking abt getting his dogs to hug. hahaha..

ok. on de other windows, a war is goin on. yea.. unwanted teddy bear is seriously pissing bro n sis [jos] off. anti club people!!! read!! gt WAR.

i better try to fall asleep nw. nite people.

2006-06-25T17:33:00.000-07:00

im blogging fr sch nw. *snores* i dont lyk database lessons. ive gt lyk the worst tutor. *faints* when she makes an error. she'll pretend n say "oh! i did tt on purpose can any1 spot the error?" when she dun even knw or cant find the error she made. slap u den u knw arh.

baby's thumb drive is gone. literally gone. i couldnt find it. =(

anywaz. ive changed my tagboard. its flash box nw. tag new tags plz!!! =)

ok. i need to log off nw. ciaoz

2006-06-24T00:13:00.000-07:00

im bored. cant play maple cos its full. 2x exp points nw so all kiasu sporeans are all playing at this time. anywaz. was suppose to go out with mom n godma today. we're suppose to go bugis to gt my customized tee.. its a really cool tee.. mirror reflected. heh. i love it to death n mom has agreed to gt 1 for me! haa.. anywaz. den godma fell ill. she's down with a fever. so no outting. *snores* if i knew she's sick earlier in the morning, i whud have told baby tt i can meet him to lend him my laptop so tt he can do his proj. den at the same time, see him. but oh well.. he's probably at a fren's place doing his work nw. oh. he has to redo his proj cos he lost his thumb drive and guess wat. he went back to sch early early in the morning to only find out tt the lab's nt open today. my poor baby..

ive gt my report to do. but im soooooo lazy. and another part of tt proj is still nt fixed. hbb tried to fix it. but..... its nt helping. gosh. somebody! help me!! hahaa.. ok.. im gonna try do a lil of my report nw. tata

2006-06-23T08:29:00.000-07:00

ok, i knw ive made 2 entries for today already. and im gonna post 1 more. im so bored. i cant sign into maple. its full. shit. and mom's being all menopaused up again. so.. i took her charger to lend it to cheryl [when she was staying over] den i forgt to return it to her. and.. i juz returned it. she has the energy to walk all the way to my room n knock on my door HARD to ask me to put it back into the plug n exactly whr i took it fr blah blah. but do nt have the energy to plug it back n put it back to the exact spot herself. ps. i left the charger in her room. near the plug. u see! she's mad. she's menopausing n still refuse to believe tt she is. she's still in denial. roar.

oh heck. watever. ive decided. im gonna gt my lil fellow a male partner. she's lonely. haa.. n lately. she's been doing actions lyk she's fucking another tortise. weird bitch. oh well.. i'll gt u a partner soon lil fellow. =)

2006-06-23T02:45:00.000-07:00

im so fucking pissed. some fucker juz spoilt my day. its ur fault tt u didnt take the disc fr ur OWN CLASSMATES to load ur fucking prog for ur fucking proj. its NOT MY FAULT tt i CANT LEND U. mf made it so fucking clear tt THE DISC IS SOLELY FOR OUR OWN CLASS. he said every class will have 2 sets of the disc each. so why didnt u take it fr ur classmates? dun give me the crap tt they didnt pass it to u. its ur own responsibility to ASK FOR IT. even i had to ask for it from my own classmates. ITS ALSO NT MY FUCKING FAULT TT U DUN WANNA START UR PROJ EARLIER. NOT MY FAULT TT U WANT TO WAIT UNTIL NW WHEN PEOPLE ARE TOO CAUGHT UP WITH THEIR OWN WORK. ITS NOT MY FAULT TT I CANT HELP U. HEY FUCKER. I CANT EVEN HELP MYSELF. ITS NOT MY FAULT TT I DUN HAVE OTHER PEOPLE'S WORK TO SEND U. ITS NOT MY FAULT TT I CANT SEND U OTHERS' WORK TOO. I DUN HAVE THE FUCKING RITE TO SPREAD THEIR WORK.

2006-06-23T01:50:00.000-07:00

hahaha. i cant believe im watching this show. Barbie's Diaries. but hey. its nice ok. its teenage show ok. haa.. guess wat. in this show, barbie reminds me of me. as in. my life. the girl who nobody notices but her close frenz. wow. haha... and.. she's into rock music too! haa.. yes. barbie is a rockstar in this show. aww.. ok. nvm abt the show. ahah... but i love the show! and i love the theme song too. maybe.. i shud go buy charm's [barbie's band] album. if its available.

anywaz. my programming is almost done. no errors n all. but! thr is 1 part tt cant work. fuck. n hbb is no whr to be found. for tt part, i cant use baby's ans as a reference. mf thot us tt before n baby's ans isnt similar to wat mf thot. oh well..

ok. gonna go do my french proj nw. ciaoz!

2006-06-22T09:34:00.000-07:00

she's the new toilet sign. replacing clarke quay's

big heads, small bods

cheryl n her beer

the gassiest alcohol. even a kid whudden knw its alcohol. he'll think it a new soft drink.

2006-06-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

damn. im suppose to meet baby tml. but... proj. he hasnt finish his. so.. means, i dun gt to see him. argh.. fuck projs. anywaz. juz gt home fr town. met cheryl n twang. den twang left, n we met my aunt [her mom] n sis for dinner. indo food... yummy! hahaha.. so aft they left, i went to look for ying. she said baby seem to be so mysterious. haha.. nice 1 girl. so... baby.. if u see this. show urself boy!! hahaha...

last nite out with erika n cheryl was fun. as usual, we walked alot. haha.. nw both my legs are blistered again. fuck. but its ok. hahaha... ok. i need to go do my work nw.

2006-06-20T03:26:00.000-07:00

YAY!!! i bought my cap! finally.. aft so long. hahaha.. i couldnt find a nice 1 all this while. but today!! today!!! i found it!!! and i love the material!!!! whhhhheeeeeeee....... and... ITS ON DISCOUNT!!! yes. i admit im a cheapo. but hey!!! a few dollars oso money ok. hahaha.. save some money means can buy more things rite?? =)))))) im sucha happy girl rite nw. haa... i'll take a pic of it 1 day. its juz a plain pink, with adiddas logo on it. love it.

ok. enough abt my lovely cap. hahhaa.. my dear twang is BACK!!! i miss her so much. heh. met her for lunch today... had my fave laksa fr my fave stall. YUM! ok. i gotta go do my proj nw. BYEE!!!!!! *hops away*

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omg. i found a gay blog. *shivers* n its pretty gay i muz say..

2006-06-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

this suck. i still cant upload pics into my entries. damn! anywaz. juz came back for awhile. met aunt, cheryl n caryn with mom. brought them ard marina sq n suntec. heh. den... i bumped in ying in suntec. haha.. had dinner at marche. yum! but im so bloated nw. i need maternity clothes. haa.. jk. but i really ate alot today. big appetite! =)))

uploaded pics of jos's bday into the album already. uploaded more today. juz gt the more pics fr tian today. go see.. its in link; photos 2

ok. im goin back to watching desperate hsewives nw. ciaoz

2006-06-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!! twin!!!!!!! ur gf... sabrina.. she's my fren's fren or isit fren's fren's fren. hahaha.. GOSH!!!! this world is so small!!! *faints* wow. all u sp people... haa

2006-06-17T01:21:00.000-07:00

if u dun want me to hate u, den STOP BUGGING ME!!!! argh. so i told teddy [unwanted.t.b] abt y im mad at her n all. yea. fuck. i cant take it anymore. and it was her who asked me. gosh. i really cant have anymore conv with her. its lyk.. u tok to her abt topic A, she'll reply u with topic B. or, her reply abt topic A will be the same all the way. yea. she keeps repeating n repeating. DAMN.

anywaz. tian is my twin nw. the sadistic twin. haaa.. oh. toking abt teddy, tian n jolin were complaining abt her to me last nite. see!!!! even people who dunno her AT ALL. cant stand her. man! she shud do something abt herself. and to teddy, hey. whether frictions [tian] is my fren or jos's fren, isnt exactly ur prob too. so wat if he's jos's fren, wat are u gonna do? make frenz with him juz for her? n dun fucking scold him for no fucking reason. stop acting lyk a mad dog here. im mad enough at u for ur attitude towards me n ur close frenz, n the way u spoke to eugene de other nite. nw, u're attacking my twin too. dun push me to the limit i warn u.

cartoon's making me happy. starhub has preview for disney channel. YAY!!!! IM SO HAPPY!!! i tried psychoing mom into getting me cable tv, but.. it failed. AGAIN. =((( i shud watch as much cartoons as i can while the preview last. haa...

2006-06-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

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hahahaha.... tian juz told me tt unwanted teddy bear kept trying to add him n he kept rejecting. gosh.. is she turning psychotic? i mean... they barely toked!!! hahahhaa.. den again. she shudden try adding him at all. lyk cos... he's vice president of the anti club [bro set tt up]! heh..

ok.. something is wrong with my blog. i cant seem to upload the pics [as promised]. i cant even type my entry properly here. something is seriously wrong with the alignment n everything else. weird..... abt the pics, i will load them in my photo album instead [go to link n click : photo 2]

finally gt dad's present. bought him his electrical toothbrush. his broke. haa.. anywaz.. i did some shopping too [obviously! its GSS! hw could i resist! heh]. bought the shorts i was eyeing on for a few days. YAY! and... a cherry tank. kinda cute. haa.. was suppose to gt a book on c#[programming if u dunno]. BUT! the all of the c# books thr, didnt have sufficient information i need for my proj. shit. i think.. i need to email mf.

had dinner at ambush juz nw. YUMMMY!!!!! i wanna go thr again. hee.. their pasta's so tasty!!! den some1 said something funny. but too bad. i couldnt laugh at him. he told his gf tt ambush is a restuarant. and tt its tastier den all de other higher class restuarants. and me? im lyk.. wat???????? yea. in my head of cos. haa... omg! ambush isnt counted a cafe even thou the price is lyk cafe prices. gosh. is he juz trying to impress her? oh well.. ok! back to maple. baby's back in maple too.

2006-06-13T21:41:00.000-07:00

sorry dont seem to be hardest word to say
show me that u're sorry
dun juz say it. u said sorry too many times for too many things already

my eye's swollen again. FUCK. anywaz. congrats bro!! u finally gt her. =))) u 2.. better stay true to each other man. if nt... i'll be stuck in the middle. heh. im happy for u guys. hee..

ok. im gonna go update my ipod nw

2006-06-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

i had sch today. *snore* etiqutte workshop [for cmsk] den proj time. it was funny hw my grp mates n i went mad fr doing our ooad proj. haa.. ok. nvm abt sch. jossy's bday party tml. yea!! cheryl's coming along with me. wheee... cant wait. i gt to meet my girls!! haa.. i miss them.

oh fuck. TOGO SCORED. shit!!!! NOOO!!!!!!!!! i want korea to score!!! fuck. oh, toking abt korea. i want korea's jersey!!! any sponsors?? heh.

ok. ive gt nthing else to blog nw. watch out for pics of her party!! haha.. i hope thr'll be photos.

2006-06-11T06:24:00.000-07:00

11 june, 9.22pm

i gt a tattoo today. =)))) but too bad, its a fake tatt.
i juz gt home fr town. met up with cheryl. YES! she's back! hahaha... saw her tatt. whooo... nice. with a pretty meaningful meaning behind it too. loves. i asked abt the piercing i want today. it'll cost me 60 bucks n no music till i close the hole. fuck. i love the piercing n i love music. im torn between the 2. i REALLY really gotta think carefully abt it.

ive gt sch on tue. SHIT! in the morning somemore. RAH!!!! and guess wat? prissay n mich wun be with me. cos it goes by classes n their classes arent in the same slot as me. crap.

2006-06-09T06:38:00.000-07:00

9 june, 9.35pm

HAPPY ANNI MY LOVE!!! <3

i juz gt home for awhile. went out with my dear girl. haa.. bumped into azmil. bloody hell. fat pig, plz lose some weight. u knw hw hard u bang into me nt?!!!!!!! luckily, i didnt fly.. OR!!!!!!!!! u owe me one more time. HAA! as usal.. azmil n i were arguing. in a fun way. haaa.. and his frenz.... gosh. all they could do was to laugh. HELP ME LAH! %%$$^^&%&^& yea. as usual.. az called me a vampire. hey!!! i dun look lyk 1 ok. n im nt a goth for goodness sake. gosh.

anywaz.. it was funny hw farmer boy was so afraid when wen pretended to be mad at him. hahaha... it was so obvious she's pretending. aww.. wat a cute couple. hahaha.. ok. if eugene ever see wat i juz said, he probably thinks im suffering fr a high fever. heh.

ok. im hungry again. im gonna go dig for food nw.

2006-06-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

8 june, 10.43pm

last paper!! yes!! i cant wait to gt it over n done with. haa.. blah blah blah... ive gt nthing to say anymore.

i miss u. i want u here with me nw.

2006-06-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

8 june, 12.38am

YAY!!! in less den 24hrs, it'll be our 84 weeks baby. hee.. =))) im so glad i have u. u make my world go round muachx.

im in a hol mood already. fuck. i still have 1 more paper!! NOO!!!!! gosh. my last paper is on fri n baby's last paper is tml. NO FAIR!! *pouts* doubt i'll be seeing him anymore for this week. i miss u hon. =(( so.. we're nt gonna spend our anni for this mth together i guess.

watched THE OMEN today. i love the movie!!! haa.. see! i told u im in a hol mood already. oh fuck. ive still gt many projs to do n cheryl's coming back lyk this sun. n ive gt plans on sat already. OH NO!!!! hw??? my proj hw??? die. i seriously need to find time. 2 weeks of hols.. is NOT enough.. i need MORE time. maybe, i'll have to go out lesser with her. BUT! BUT! i need to spend as MUCH time with her as i can. cos.. once she goes to aussie. i'll hardly gt to see her. UNLESS! some kind soul will sponsor me my trip over. erm.. shopping n food fees will do. heh. ok.. im tired. i need rest. no sch tml!! yay!

2006-06-06T01:45:00.000-07:00

edited.
6.6.06, 6.59pm

if u want it, u gt to go thru it
fight for love, and the world brings u dwn
but the world will bend,
den the fight will end
love will alwaz win

tts a segment fr a song i juz heard on Oprah. gosh. sucha beautiful song. hee... i didnt manage to memorise the lyrics of the whole song.. but its so sweet!! i mean the lyrics. love it love it love it. very suitable for weddings i muz say. haaa.. oh. who sang it? garth brooks n trisha yearwood [they're country music singers lah.] and they're a real couple. isnt it sweeter nw?? wow...

666 - de-vil's day! woot. hahaha.. opening of the omen!!! i shall resist. aft term test man..
roar!! im abt to slap this fucking bastard whom i barely knw. fuck. he keeps pestering me. back off! argh... STOP BUGGING ME!!!!!!!!!!! and u cant even spell maple. its MAPLE not mepla. wtf.

anywaz.. im home early today. haa.. acc prissay to meet adrian n this guy whom pris call hero [cos he lent us his brolly since it was raining today] for lunch. haha.. den adrian [he drove today] sent both of us home. heh heh... save time n bus fare. ok. so my bus fare dun make much diff. but still. save time. ALOT OF TIME ok. hahaha... i muz come back early to study. haa..

oh. today's paper? EVERYBODY'S GONNA FAIL!! yea!!! rejoice. hahahaha... serious. every1 i asked hw was the paper? same ans. FAIL!!! GONE!!! ahhahaha... even baby. yea. baby n i screwed the paper too. heh..

gosh. sch hol's coming again. n cheryl quek has yet to contact me to tell me abt her arrival time. im suppose to go pick her up. gotta msg her soon. heh. sch hol comes, means i gt to see less of baby. =((( i dun care. u promised to spend more time with me. u better. hee.. i miss u already!!! *pouts* n yes. only u gt the privillege to mess my hair okie? hahaha.. i think baby knws wat im up to nw. hahaha..

ok. study time!! ciaoz!

2006-06-01T08:26:00.000-07:00

1 june, 11.23pm

i told u everything
open up let u in
u made me feel alrite
but nw, im barely hanging on
your actions n words scar me
n all your smiles haunt me

- give me hope, make me whole once again.

2006-05-29T09:26:00.000-07:00

30 may, 12.23am

*yawns n rub eyes* im so sleepy.. but im still up. waiting for baby to finish his proj. i need to help him do his coverpage n print his proj out. *yawns again* im tired but i dun wanna rush him. he's already rushing his work n its gonna be junk cos he's nt doing it properly already. gosh.. wat a nice nice nite to slp. i cant wait to fall flat onto my bed n falling deep asleep. heh heh..

babysat today. brought jon, diane n her fren for a movie. OVER THE HEDGE. so cute! haha.. hammy's so hyper active. n vern!!! keeps falling out of his shell. hahaa.. can i pull my tortise outta her shell too? haa. chill people. i wun. oh yar. she's turning pink. i wonder why... soon im gonna have a pink tortise man... hahaha...

ok.. gonna go do his coverpage nw n count dwn to the time i gt to really fall asleep.

2006-05-27T23:06:00.000-07:00

28 may, 2.04pm

goodness me. my msn is still hanging. roar. im so happy tt u missed me!!! =))))) i mean.. for the 1st time aft so long.. u act typed i miss u. *smiles widely* hee... ok. ignore my retarded-ness. hahaha... X MEN 3!!!!!! whooooo... MUZ WATCH!! hahaa.. ok. im gonna go look for x men 3 khakis nw. heh heh..

my day started out bad i muz say. fuck. she juz have to spoil my day. why?! argh.. but its ok.. baby made it a happy day for me aft tt. =))))))) hahaha... today! shall have a happy entry. cos im happy cos he made me happy. haa. u knw.. the small lil things u say or do for me, makes a big difference n has an impact on me.

ok. i dunno wat else to blog. haa.. oh!!! ive gt a test tml n on tue. tue's french test. HELP. im so gonna die for listening. haha.. ask me to spell? i can do tt. but asking me to listening.. uh-oh... die... ahaha.. okok.. better go study for my tests nw. ciaoz people!

2006-05-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

25 may, 11.42pm

her heart stopped beating
goodbye to u my lil one

my eye is swollen once again. i want my baby here with me. =((( n ive gt tons of blue black which i have no idea whr it came from. it juz gt onto me mysterically.

am suppose to hang out with prissay n jl tml. but. i gotta go meet godma. FACIAL TIME!! hahha... i cant wait for tml. i gt to see honey. he's accompanying me to sch tml. i miss him so bad. *pouts*

ok. i have no idea wat else to blog. i guess, im gonna go to bed soon. im looking lyk a panda. heh

2006-05-23T04:45:00.000-07:00

23 may, 7.43pm

omfg. im sure her tattoo's done by nw. hahah. im so excited!!! fuck. i cant wait for her to come back n suprise me with her tatt. haha... gosh.. she's tempting me to gt 1. but oh well.. i cant gt it. haa. so! its ok. i'll stick to my piercings instead. heh

every1's sick. therefore, im surrounded by germs. haha.. bestie's sick, prissay's sick, jl's sick and baby's sick too. woah.... haha.. poor baby. such a sexy voice u have nw. its seducing me. hahah.. okok.. dun tease u. but u've been asking me if ur voice is sexy for the whole of today.. so!!! im telling u the truth nw. heh

roar. my moscow's trip been postponed. rah!!!! till when? i dunno. =((

2006-05-19T04:46:00.000-07:00

19 may, 7.44pm

rah!!! STUPID AUNTIE!!!!! kiasu people. roar!!!!! bloody hell. fight over a seat with me beside my boy. fucking hell.. she can have the seat i was bloody sitting on n gimme the seat beside my boy... but no.... she gotta be so fucking kiasu n take the seat the second the person who was act sitting thr gt out. fuck. ARGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AUNTIE!! U KNW HW LONG I HAVENT HAD A BUS RIDE HOME WITH MY BOY NT!!!!! a WEEK! rah!!!!!!!!!!

*calms dwn* well.. at least it was a auntie n nt some pretty bitch doing tt. if nt.... sure cat fight i tell u.

im having breakouts. RAH! all the zits. eew. i hate zits. baby act thot i burst the 1 tt burst last nite. its the pimple cream lah sweets. tts why it looks red. haha...

u knw i love u, u knw i need u.
so, love me, pamper me, care for me, treasure me, make me happy. all over again.

2006-05-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

15 may, 11.19pm

i finally admitted it. yes, i do fear tt i'll lose u. i admit it.

2006-05-15T01:27:00.000-07:00

15 may, 4.25pm

IM HOME!! haha... today's the earliest day tt i reach home fr sch. y? cos i DIDNT go out! haha.. say u're proud of me plzz.... hahaha... wat to do? everybody wanna go home so no choice. wanted to watch when a stranger calls, half of us are supppper broke. oh! n 2 have sch still. haaa..

today.. is the day tt i bump into baby the most time is less den an hr? no.. make it less den 30 mins. hahaha... oh! n i think he has the same pair of jeans as me. ive gt the skirt ver n he gt the male ver. haha... in the words of prissay's twin: "i dunno isit a gd or a bad thing. *smiles lyk a retard*"

toking abt jeans. ive gt new jeans!!! YAY!!!!! hahaa.. im so happy!!! mommy bought me the latest levis red tab. loveeeee it!!! the button? is red!! the tag? is partially red. wow!!! hahaha.. im gonna wear it tml. dun care! haha... so pretttttay... oh!! n i saw somebody wearing the 200+ bucks levis lady's style to sch. she's mad lah. pay so much to wear it to sch. heh

okie!! im gonna go bathe nw. yes yes. i love my tortises!!!! lil fellow n hungry pig. haaa...

2006-05-12T11:00:00.000-07:00

13 may, 1.58pm

ok, isit me or is everything seem to be goin in the wrong direction? lets see.. my whole mense period shit has gone wrong. im bled for 8 days, n im still stuck in having a pantyliner on. fuck. and.. bestie's sick. she very pms-sy nw which seem to be a lil hostile towards me. gosh. erm.. wat else. ok. cold season. yes. its still goin on. when? when will u start showering me with all ur love, making me feel so damn very loved by u again?? i need n want those days back. its too cold.. i need ur love = ur warmth. wat else? my tortise. she's a dumb dumb. she keeps over turning herself cos she cant gt dwn fr the other lil fellow aft crawling on top of her. lesbian! but its ok. heh. rah!!! i think. i shud go look for a priest with bestie den ask him to super bless us, give us a whole bucket of holy water n we shall bathe with it. heh. maybe, priest will slap me with my special request. haha... oh well..

went out with jon, diane, their parents n mom today. bought new shoes!! muahahahaha... hopefully... my feet wun complain with this new pair of ballet shoes. i seriously need my feet to adapt to a decent looking shoe. i cant go on wearing sneakers n sandals n slippers for the rest of my life rite? im trying nt to be a tomboy ok. so shut up. dun laugh at me. ENCOURAGE ME!!! haha... met farmer boy. he was working. yes. we said hi. see!! we're still frenz even thou he said stuffs he shudden have. but its ok. for wen's sake? i'll make peace with him! hee... she's hostile n pms-sy nw. so. hopefully this can make her happy. i want u to smile girl. =)) dun be hostile to me plz. its scary lah...

okok.. im tired. nite people!

2006-05-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

10 may, 10.50pm

yest was our 20th mth together. met up and went for a move. MI3!!!! wow. so nice. ahaa.. i mean the movie. i love the movie!!! the wife saves the husband. wat a twist.

today? was juz another long day of sch. so freakingly tired. ok. i dunno wat to blog anymore. haha.. ciaoz!

i love u till the end of time. do u feel the same?

2006-05-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

7 may, 12.22am

RAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they won. thr goes my money... gst is gonna increase soon i guess. *faint*

gosh. they're such showoffs!!! so wat if u won? eew. total eew. why are people so blind to see tt they're greeds. u people love paying money to people who dun need them isit? u think money so easy to earn isit? why are u all nt protecting ur own finances???? goodness. im disappointed with u people.. im so fucking annoyed with u [u knw who]!! gd plans??? yea rite. help? oh u mean pay money to u so tt u can help us? tts nt help. u think im stupid isit? u think i cant read between ur lines??? u're wrong. soooo wrong. IM STILL WAITING FOR MY FREAKING DOORR!!!!

haha... mommy ask me to go into politics. she says since im love n is pretty gd in arguing and making lotsa noise abt things, politics is the best job for me. hahaha.. *faint* if i go nto politics i cant hevoc u knw!!! no parties, no late nites, no makeup [ee!! i'll look so ugly], no piercings, more pressure fr locals... wahhh!! so many cons. er.. i think. better nt. if nt im gonna end up slapping every1's faces. heh heh... ok, my eye's swollen again. i think im lacking of slp. sooo.. sleeping time!!! i''ll turn in early tonight. haa. nite people!

2006-05-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

6 may, 3.16pm

polled yet? haha... im sure most of those who are reading my blog, cant vote. heh. im tired!!!! so sleepy.. i thot i could slp in till aftnoon today, n mom jusssssssstttttt have to wake me up at noon. roar. i wanna take a nap, but its too hot lah. i wanna go out, but mom's to lazy.

yest was fun. celebrated wen's n woo's bday. owe both of them their pressies. becos! wen's havanas were out of stock, and woo's pressie, well.. im broke cos of mother's day. i love wen's waterfall. wow!!! glasses above glasses, lit with a light and the fire flows straight dwn to her cocktail. wow!!!!!!! but im nt gonna drink it. hahahhaa.. i juz want to see the effect. heh. we had chicken rice n some other dishes for dinner, den went to liquid kitchen to drink. i didnt drink much. juz 1 glass of blue lagoon n nthing else but water. see! im a gd girl. haha.. so many love birds thr, eug n jos, louis n ying [but louis left early], melissa ho n her bf, bonia auntie n her many husbands. haha.. reached home at 1 plus. it was almost 2. slept at 2 plus. haaa.. i need slp!!! my panda eyes are getting worst. gosh. i think, i better buy the patches for panda eyes to really prevent me fr looking lyk a panda soon. haha..

ok.. i wanna play maple nw. im dying to reach lvl 40. i wanna wear my pirate lyk hat!!! haha..

2006-04-30T23:56:00.000-07:00

1 may, 2.54pm

i dun wanna hear, i dun wanna knw
pls dun say u're sorry
ive hear it all before

fuck. juz stop it. stop treating me lyk tt. dun push me to the edge i tell u. hw did everything changed so suddenly? it really hurts. why isit alwaz lyk tt? when something beautiful is given to me, i treasure it with my life, den somebody has to take tt away fr me. put in thru pain all over again. why?! why?!!!! some1 juz tell me why. am i so insignificant? am i so unimportant? is loving me so diff? give me all the hope. den take it all back suddenly. tts nt wat its suppose to be. maybe i am really tt insignificant, tt unimportant. maybe nobody treasures me at all. everything's been a lie isnt it? isnt tt wats my life is, and will alwaz be?

i'll try nt to cry. but i knw i cant.
can somebody take me away? take me far away from here. far away from all the pain?

2006-04-30T06:35:00.000-07:00

30 april, 9.33pm

days seem strange

met up with the girls on fri. so funnn!!! hahhaa.. and the latest topic nw? jialing n deb gt drunk. aahhaa.. every1 wanna witness it themselves. poor girls. haha.. gonna meet the girls again this coming week to celeb woo n wen's bday. so broke. grandma nicely hint tt she wants a new gold earring yest. hahah.. and ive gt mommy to pay for it. all i gt to do? hunt for a nice gold earring. oh!! and it got to fit her criteria. haha.. yea.. grandma's pretty fussy abt it.

went to see a doc yest. girl's prob. hahaa.. doc did a scanning for me. i saw my egg!!!! hahaha.. so small.. so cute. hahaha.. i saw my womb too. its empty. no baby inside [DUH!!!]. hahaha.. doc says watever im suffering fr is due to hormonal inbalance due to tension. she said it could also be caused by something which upset me alot. *looks at wen* she'll knw wat im want to say

its nt suppose to be this way.

2006-04-24T03:59:00.000-07:00

24 april, 6.57pm

1st day of sch didnt start off well. yea. bloody hell. i was trying to stone on 76. den!!! this guy sitting behind me!!! dunno he hyper active of wat. keep moving and i think he has extremely long legs or something. he move 1 time, my chair jerks 1 time. fuck! and he kept moving!!!! annoying piece of shit. roar. ok. nvm. when i bored 8, this uncle who juz finished smoking sat beside me!!! rah!!!! and he stink lyk shit? wat cigrattes did he smoke? he shud change the brand of cigs man..... he's stinks lyk mad!!!! or maybe its juz him + smoke = stinky! yea.. obviously, i was holding my breath the whole time.

oh!! guess wat. i dunno if i saw meng meng. thr was this person on 8 who looks EXACTLY lyk her. but a lil diff. i think its the hair. hahaa... but wats she doing in tp? [she dropped off at tp] i thot she's suppose to become a teacher? oh well.

oh. den i gt lyk the dumbest lecturers for today. cept for lai wan. i wonder hw am i gonna pass this sem... *faint* the rest of the day went pretty well thou. phew. met bunchies for lunch. excluding jel's wife. haha.. she off her damn phone. so.. nt my fault ok!!! nt tt we didnt ask her to join us. heh. oh!! and evil bro had lessons. so he wasnt with us too. den, the rest left for lessons leaving prissay n me. bao bao went home. yea.. chat. goodness.. so many things happened in a day. and somebody proved to me tt most guys really do suck. its alwaz them making the girls cry lyk shit. why?! roar. met twangie too!!! hahhaa... 3 twangs act. gf, fatty, and daryl. yea.. bumped into daryl in sch n i met de other 2 aft sch. heh.. fatty paid for our cab fare to wen's place. whheeeeee..

2006-04-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

22 april, 9.39pm

so maple's weird these days. haha... or shud i say its the players who are weird. last nite, baby n i faced this weird guy who keeps claiming to be my bf [when baby's char is juz right beside me]. it was funny watching the conv between baby n tt guy. haha.. and i really do love the fact tt he's protecting me even thou its juz a game. tts sweet. =))

and today? this female char came to me and told me pretty girl and sexy huh?. weird bitch. haha.. is she trying to be my new lesbian partner? oh. sorry girl. im taken by 2 girls and a guy. heh.

2006-04-21T10:01:00.000-07:00

22 april, 1am

i love my gf. haha.. met her on thurs and on fri. hee... yes. we are rubbish and very hungry people. haa.. and the ice cream man. TWANG!! IM NT PLAYING WITH HIM AGAIN!! hahaa... bloody hell.. ice cream uncle try to cheat my feelings. gimme empty cone and dun let me take my ice cream. bleah. haha.. but its ok. he gave us ultra huge scoops of ice cream in de end. yea.. we couldnt eat the ice cream in time. too much lah!! kept melting. haha.. but it was yummy!!! i want more!!!! =))

im nt looking fwd to 1st day of sch. separated fr my bunchies. =(( why?!?!!! why tp separated me fr gf no2. rah!!!! im gonna miss my girl so bad. =((((( and evil bro. and the eunch!!! hahaha... yea. eunch's mich. he's gay. he's bf? adrain. haa. all gt separated fr me!!! fuck. and who am i in the same class with? bao bao. *faint* im sure. thr'll be lots of conflict to come. its funny hw im alwaz irritated with bao bao but we can remain frenz. nt gd frenz. but juz frenz. still. its amazing. rah!!! 1st lesson of 1st day of sch? database. *faint* too early!! i cant think!!! i need more slp... *pouts*

hmm.. am looking fwd to tue thou. hee... i gt to see honey for.. erm.. wait let me count. at least 2 hrs. if he's sending me to sch and sending me home and spending the breaks with me. tt'll be 6hrs!!! ooo... ok. so i may feel a lil weird at 1st being in the same class as hon. but hey. im sure i'll gt used to it. hee.. we were nv in the same class. so u see. nv say nv. haaa.. ok.. i wanna go to bed nw. nite people!

2006-04-19T01:32:00.000-07:00

19 april, 4.32pm

my room smells of hair dye. haa. im dying my hair. DUH! am waiting for the colour to go onto my hair. yea. jet black. MAH FAVE! hahahaa... yea.. den when i start getting allowance again, am gonna go to adrain's and bleach some parts of my bangs red. wheee!! cant wait. hahaha

chatting with mr. chua at the moment. bloody hell... dun believe im a gd girl. eh!!!!! I AM OK!!!! u naughty boy. haaaaa....

2006-04-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

14 april, 11.16pm

im so pissed. i seriously feel lyk i have no family. yea. an orphan. tts exactly hw i feel. plz. my parents do nt treat me lyk their child. haa. hw u guys alwaz say u all love me more den anything else blah blah blah. its all bull. plz. stop lying to me. stop lying to urself. my whole life, has been 1 big fucking lie. do u have any idea hw cheated i feel? who knws? maybe im a kid whom u guys picked up on the street. yea. treat me lyk dirt. funny hw i still love u guys as my parents. no.. tts bad. it cos me more pain. everytime i look at hw other's family are so happy together, i feel so fucking upset. no. im nt trying to be emo here. u used to use money to buy me back. fuck. it doesnt work. and nw, u guys made things worst. u cut off my allowance when thr's no sch blah blah. yea.. lyk wat cheryl.q says. it seems lyk u're living on ur own. able to move out soon. i think so too. fuck. i dun wanna go on.

mom. stop pretending lyk nthing happened. i cant lie to myself anymore. so, plz stop lying to urself and to me too.

2006-04-13T05:32:00.000-07:00

13 april, 8.38pm

juz gt home fr dinner. before tt, we went to adrian's to gt a haircut. ok. so its juz me who had the hair cut. wen acc me. haa.. and before before this, hahaa.. i met hon. yea! heee...

ok.. so i realised whenever i go to jean yip for a haircut, i end up with bangs [a.k.a fringe]. heh. this time too.. adrian gave me bangs. yea.. my gosh. my head feels so light!!! hahaha.. yea.. adrain chopped off most of the thickness.. he says "u gt alot of mao". haha.. eh!! nt mao ok. im human leh.. hahaha... most prob.. im gonna go back to adrian for my bleach job. heh.. but i gotta gt 22 bucks 1st. broke. cant do both dye n bleach at adrian's. i dun have 44 bucks. roar.. so.. i'll juz go for my bleaching.. i can dye the rest of my head on my own. aftall.. its juz black. bleaching more troublesome. heh

okok... im gonna go back to watching american idol nw. ciaoz! oh yar.. gimme comments for my new hairstyle!!! haha

2006-04-12T09:13:00.000-07:00

13 april, 12.12am

i still rmb the time we sorta plan our big day. u promise to hold it at the beach juz lyk hw i lyk it. u promised to make the event small. u promised to have buffet instead. u promised every other thing.

tell me if this day will ever come.
u knw i'll love u alwaz

2006-04-05T22:11:00.000-07:00

6 april, 1.09pm

wen's chalet was fun. till they gt drunk. hahaa.. we had to take care of them. i have to say. the sight of them being so drunk was hilarious. esp jossy. haha.. my gosh! all the things she said.

re-enactment -
jossy: *pukes*
jossy: eeeeee... my puke's so disgusting
jossy: *pukes more*
jossy: i think i ate too much satay. all my satay
jossy: i puke so i much i think i lost 2kg
joyce: *looks at jossy*
jossy: look wat look? i see u for 5 yrs already! i dun wanna see u anymore!
jas: *speaks to jossy*
jossy: tok to me for wat? i tok to u for 5 yrs already! i dun wanna tok to u!!
jossy: *stomach growls*
jossy: i want to eat nachos. i want the cheese too!!
joyce: *takes away the nachos on the table*
jossy: whr's my nachos?!!!! gimme back my nachos!!!!!
joyce: *gives her twisties [cheese flavour]
jossy: i dun want twisties!!! gt cheese!!!
joyce: *wonders: i thot u wanted cheese too?*

u gotta be thr to see hw she tok. oh!! and the part. whr she say she's romantic. she can make out while saying a poem. hahaha... gosh...

2006-04-03T07:35:00.000-07:00

3 april, 10.34pm

im so lazy to pack my bag for tml.. hahaa.. in de end.. im on the phone. haha.. and hecty's playing wonderwall by oasis on his guitar. I LOVE TT SONG!! *jumps* ok. i cant hear him sing it. his guitar is so freaking loud. haha.. its ok. i rather hear his guitar. ive alwaz wanted hon to act hear wonderwall. my gosh. its almost hw i feel. yea. hon's my wonderwall. once he's by my side, everything will be fine again. =)

do anybody have the song torn by natalie imbruglia and photo by ryan.c???? send them to me!! i cant find these songs. and i love those 2 songs so much.

ok. desperate hsewives is back on again

2006-04-02T05:36:00.000-07:00

2 april, 8.35pm

roar. im sooooo fucking pissed. my gosh. godma's turning diane into my clone. fuck. i hate it soooo much. cant she see diane has her own sense of lyking n style? diane's erm.. so pop. im soo.. not pop. fuck. diane loves to dance n nw u want her to learn drums? fuck. its nt even her passion. ITS MINE!!!! argh.. even mommy's pissed with her nw. watever. im nt gonna let her make diane be me. no way.

2006-03-31T19:38:00.000-08:00

1 april, 11.37am

ive retired fr playing pranks on april fools day. yea.. ever since the horrible horrible april fools day. i still rmb tt pain. oh well.

im sleepy. ahaha.. i woke up early early this morn to acc mom to the market. juz.... to find the shoe wen n i want. u knw those ballet sch shoe? haha. yea. bata changed their design for tt shoe. i want the old sch ones!! found it, but our size wasnt available. fuck. wasted my morn. in 15mins time, i gotta go gt ready to go out. gonna meet baby for lunch. yea! hee.. den meeting mommy in town aft tt. she's gonna do the shopping. nt me. too broke to. hahaha.. mommy was making so much noise this morn *cover my ears* goodness. why? juz becos i headed off to poop straight aft i finished my breakfast. hey! i cant help it. veggies and spicy stuffs makes me poop. heh..

ok.. im gonna go catch a short short nap before i gotta start getting ready to meet hon. ciaoz

2006-03-31T03:15:00.000-08:00

31 march, 7.14pm

today was fun. haa... rosa almost gt raped by us. haha.. my gosh. the sight of wen seducing rosa was hilarious. haha.. did alot of silly things too. like.. making sharp breasts sand castle on rosa's boobs, trying to pretend to rape rosa, running into the cold waters lyk we were in some bollywood movie den start screaming [becos we realised the water was cold]. hw lame. haha.. took quite alot of photos. as u all knw, spaces msn is dwn. so. u guys, really gotta wait. maybe, i'll post some of the pics here.

im nt exactly burnt. i look... strawberry brown? heh. nt really tanned and nt really burnt. juz a lil pinky n a lil brownish. haa. oh.. and we were sooooo tempted to have ice cream. BEN AND JERRY'S!!! *scream* so tempting. but too bad. we were too broke to have ben and jerry's. yea.. tts hw broke 3 of us are. roar. i want my cookie dough... =((( its ok. avoiding ice cream... can be a gd thing too. lesser ice cream = lesser calories. heh. so, we had coconut instead. yummy. hee..

aft tanning and playing in the water, dinner/tea break time!!! prata.. ooh.. so yummy. n bah ku teh. wah... haaa. ok. gtg. wen's waiting for me in maple. ciaoz..

2006-03-27T05:26:00.000-08:00

27 march, 9.25pm

i cant wait for fri. tanning!!!! my gosh. plz dun rain. DONT RAIN!!! i want and need the sun to be out. yea. shinning brightly in the sky. haa. i miss spending lyk the whole freaking day with my girls. hee.. ah!!! so excited. im soooo.. looking fwd to fri. i havent been to sentosa for quite awhile nw. =))

i'll blog another day. mapling. haa

2006-03-23T20:12:00.000-08:00

24 march, 12.11pm

im waiting for ur reply. ans me soon..

maybe.. HE's putting me to the test. i will and i muz survive.

2006-03-22T04:43:00.000-08:00

22 march, 8.43pm

i need and want u here nw and forever. promise u'll be mine alwaz

stop playing those sad, soppy love songs. damn. making me so darn dwn rite nw

2006-03-21T04:21:00.000-08:00

21 march, 8,20pm

so. im nt de only 1 having a bad day. juz read azmil gf's blog. she had a suuuupppper bad day too. hmm.. at least my didnt suck as bad. yea. 1st, i was nagged by mom [i was already late n she was taking up even more time] EARLY MORNING mind u. lyk hello?! im forcing my breakfast dwn my throat so i can gt out the hse faster? stop nagging and make me respond will u? ok. next. i was stuck in a fucking jam. yea. even ltr for work nw. wats next? i gt lost in clark quey. thank goodness vernette had patience guiding me to the office. she knws im very lost. oh den.. as i was finally making my way to the office, my shoe "bit" me. nw. i have this super annoying blister on my toe. roar. i had to stand for the whole day while working. sitting dwn dun give me the correct height to pack the stuffs. so. i had to stand. so im tired already rite? means crankier rite? my shoe [NEW SHOE!] had to start showing signs of spoiling. wtf. i only wore it lyk today's the 2nd time?! irritated my foot for awhile. had to keep stopping to fix my shoe. oh. next. i was waiting for bus home. den this bunch of people. brainless bunch of people juz have to stand rite in front of me. no wait. block my whole fucking view. how am i to see wat bus is coming?! argggghhh... im pmsing today. tts vad enough. everything else juz have to go wrong too isit? isit?! nvm. im feeling much better nw. dun wanna think abt the bad day i had. well. vernette did brighten my day up a lil. she gave me a bottle of happy perfume n happy to be perfume. cos.. she wants me to be happy! hee.. and it was so sweet of her. she knws ive gt dry lips, she gave me a lip balm too. aww.... thx ver! =))

ok. i miss my hon nw. when's he comin online??? *pouts*

2006-03-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

20 march, 3.14pm

he juz left my place for awhile. my time with him for today was cut short. he's meeting roach. roar.

hey. dun alienate me.
i'll continue faking a smile. =)

2006-03-19T19:10:00.000-08:00

20 march, 11.10am

ok.. i cant load kl photos onto spaces yet. spaces is sorta.. down. will let u guys nw again once the pics are up. =))

2006-03-19T01:35:00.000-08:00

19 march, 5.34pm

im statisfied. haha.. ok. no wait. almost satisfied [juz shot of my metal bin]. becos.. I WENT IKEA TO SHOP!! wheeee... ahaha.. yea. tts lyk the ultimate shop for me. i love everything thr. juz am nv able to buy everything i really want. ha. firstly. room's too small. secondly, im lazy to keep everything clean. thirdly.. some of the furnitures i want, are too ex. hahaa.. bought a new dustbin. 1.60 aft discount. SO CHEAP! yea. im a cheapo. CANNOT ISIT?! haa. i chose the 1.60 dustbin over the 29 bucks dustbin. y? becos its bigger n cheaper n its in my trolley already. haha.. and its white! haa. i really love the 29 bucks 1 too. its metal, with a cute cover, has this round thing for me to hook my plastic bag onto and this base to keep the whole bin clean. hw cool. but. thrs a lil rust on the cover and i had to go all the way up to the top lvl juz to gt a new 1. nah. too far. i'll settle for the 1.60 bin 1st. hmm.. maybe next time den i'll gt my cute lil 29 bucks bin. hee.. mom gt fragrance flowers for the hse too. and we had to gt this cute lil plate to put them. plate? 1.20 and it comes with the stand. hw cool. ok.. im startin to sound really cheapo. but hey. who can resist gd n cheap stuffs rite? hee..

and yes. i ate alot at ikea. i love the food thr. heh. had poached salmon, choc mousse, some mee goreng, fries [fr diane's plate] n pepsi. YUMMY!!!!!! *rubs my tummy* i feel fat. but its ok. so long.. its my fave. i juz couldnt care hw fattening the food is. haa. im so lazy to load the rest of the pics taken in KL rite nw. so.... guys. check my photo album [link: photo2] aft today. i'll load them thr tonite yar? ok. i need to go bathe nw. ciaoz

2006-03-17T02:39:00.000-08:00

17 march, 6.39pm

juz gt home awhile from a funny game of badminton with rosa. ahaha... i think we spent most of the time laughing instead of playing. haha... and we suck at playing!! hahaha.. rosa!! stop poking ur finger thru the broken net too. haha..

my gosh. its all ur fault lah rosa!! why?!!!! why did u bring me into the pet shop!! see lah. fell in love with the baby french bulldog and the baby husky. roar. i want it!! gosh. the french bulldog tt i want.. cost so much. roar. cant they take away another 0. why?!! why are maltese so cheap. not fair!! =(( i want the baby french bulldog so bad. so tempted to kidnap the lil fellow home. i already thot of the name for it. eng name: brownie. chi name: xiao zhu zhu. haha... cute rite?!!!! hahaha.. ok. ignore the cute part. haha.. and the husky.. oh my gosh.. SO PRETTY!! esp its eyes. wow. im so mesmerized by its eyes. hee.. *dreams*

2006-03-14T20:11:00.000-08:00

seann n zephy in the hotel

Me - at the twin tower. High up in the sky. haha

Me trying to take a pic of her n she trying to take a pics of me

I love this ad. heh. found at the monorail station.

I gt bored in the room lah. heh

15 march, 12.10pm

Ive still gt more pics fr the kl trip. will blog them in another entry. Not enough space here. haha.. the trip was ok. but ive gt tons of bruises. 1 fr bumper cars, 1 fr mommy, and 1 fr the bloody van which tried to kill me. bloody fucker. mommy corrupted diane's brain. omg. nw, diane's hooked to this toy which act is a flasher. haha.. the toy is funny act. but still... sick. i almost bored this shit toy thingy. yea. its faeces. and a fart spray. hahha.. i gt my nails done too. whoo.. haha.. but i spoilt 1 of them. oops. it hasnt dry and i was already busy folding hearts. and tt nail spoilt. oh well. fr far, it doesnt look spoilt. SO! its ok... heh. overall, the trip was fun. did alot of shopping amd mommy's complaining hw broke she is nw. haha.. oops!

2006-03-10T07:29:00.000-08:00

10 march, 11.30pm

im getting ready to go to bed nw. gotta wake up early tml. am leaving for malaysia and honey's chasing me to bed. hee.. yes darling. i'll go to bed nw. hee.. so.. its gonna be a short trip. but im gonna miss my darling bf, and my 2 darling gfs. and... chan rosa!!!! u muz miss me too ok! haha...

seann n zephy.. they're coming with me of cos. hee.. sadly.. their daddy cant go. if nt.. happy family. haha... love u guys!

2006-03-09T08:35:00.000-08:00

10 march, 12.35am

my love for u is blind and i love u more den u ever knw

muahahaha.. im sucha genius. haha.. i fixed my connection. whee!!! i miss my connection!! haha.. anywaz.. today.. went out with hon. hee.. celebrating our anni together for the 1st time aft so long. hee.. hopefully.. thr's more to come. =)

thx rosa n my darling gf for hanging ard. love u guys. ok.. im gonna go play game nw. haha... i havent played it since the day my connection was dwn. wahahaha..

2006-03-06T23:41:00.000-08:00

7 march, 3.40pm

i need inspiration for photo album for an old couple. fuck. somebody. show me love. i need tt fucking inspiration. damn.

2006-03-06T08:34:00.000-08:00

7 march, 12.33am

love can be of many splended things, who cares abt another joy it brings, a dozen roses and diamond rings, dreams for sale and fairytales, it'll make u hear a symphony and u juz want the world to see. Like a drug it makes u blind and it can fool ya everything. The trouble with love is, it can tear you up inside, make ur heart believe a lie. Its stronger den your pride. The trouble with love is, it doesnt care hw fast u fall, and you cant refuse the call. See you've gt no say at all. Its in your heart, its in your soul. You've gt no control at all.

2006-03-06T01:51:00.000-08:00

6 march, 5.52pm

my hol to malaysia is booked. whheeee... hahaa... anywaz.. nt really looking fwd to it thou. cos.. once im nt in spore, i wun gt to tok to baby and im gonna miss him so badly. sch hol's sooooooo freakingly boring. *snores* its too short to find a job. thrs a possibility of getting a job but its majorly low. gosh. ok.. i gt nthing to blog anymore.

2006-03-04T06:04:00.000-08:00

4 march, 10.05pm

i juz gt home awhile. went shopping!! haha.. didnt buy anything for myself thou. haha... walked for hrs juz to look for grandma and grandpa's stuffs and ah ming ge's things too. haha... ah ming ge the famous china farmer. hahaha.. rite wen? hahaa.. okok.. dun tease him. wait somebody heart ache. hee.. my legs ache.. so sore... haha.. walked too much. haha.. but its ok.. its gd exercise. muahaha..

2006-03-01T05:56:00.000-08:00

1 March, 9.54pm

wow. its march already. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISSAY!! yes. she's so legal. so leagal to buy her own fags. haha... love her. wen darling.. dun gt jealous. i love u too. hee..

more drillings this morn. in fact, it was even earlier today. it started drilling at 9am. luckily im nt lacking of slp. if nt.. tt bastard is so gonna gt it fr me. i'll probably storm dwn to his hse with my trusty old bamboo and poke him thr. *evil laugh* hey. he's lucky i didnt do tt. though the drillings werent as loud as yest, it almost killed me still. it caused me this bad headach. it felt lyk my brains were growing. mommy teased me abt my headach. she said im becoming brainier so my brains muz grow. =.=

i think azmil and nadine fought. aww.. hw sad. hope they'll be fine soon. mil!!! go do something abt it. cheer her up u dumbo. though i dun really lyk her. but for ur happiness, plz go do something.

2006-02-28T10:58:00.000-08:00

roar... some bastard has too much money and is renovating his whole fucking hse. can he be more considerate? bloody bastard. 1st u disturb me during my exams period with all ur drilling. nw.. u disturb my fucking hols by concurrent drillings and knocking. i knock ur head den u knw! [palani's people.. sound familiar? haa] argh.... this fucking bastard has too much money. give them to me LAH. i'll make better use of it den u. roar.

I WANNA GET OUTTA HSE!!!!!!!! ITS TOO NOISY AND ITS KILLING ME!!!!!!

2006-02-27T07:33:00.000-08:00

27 feb, 11.35pm

watched pink panther today. ITS HILARIOUS!!! oh my gosh. i laughed till i cant laugh anymore. haha.. "-toilet floor burnt and he crashes dwn- i need fresh towels in 204" haha.. tts 1 of my fave part of the movie. so cute. esp the animated part [its at the beginning whr pink panther is dancing and doing other stuffs. heh] nt only the movie was funny. today was funny. we saw this 40+ maybe 50 yr old couple making out on the escalator and erika almost trip. trumatized. haha.. the funny thing was hw the guy kissed the woman. GOLDFISH MOUTH!!! haha.. yea. tts hw he kissed her. best part. he grabbed her to make out with her. oei!!! both of ur ages will add up to 100yrs old. behave urself man.... but its ok. it was funny. entertainment for us. haha.. den.. thrs this crazy ang moh guy alwaz dancing with his weird animal outfits at shaw, he act came up to us and said "why did u break up with me. we've been together for ages. blah blah" ok... dun get the wrong idea. he did tt in a funny way. no wait. is tt a sign? *paranoia strucks cos april's near*

marche's hotdog is SUPER filling. the bread seem to be nv ending. haha.. no matter hw much i eat, the bread somehw cant seem to be finished. gosh.

thrs something i knw abt u tt i dun want u to knw.

2006-02-26T08:21:00.000-08:00

27 feb, 12.20am

u came and u change my whole world nw
and ive been to somewhr ive nv been before, nw i see. what love means
its so unbelivable and i dont wanna let it go
its something so beautiful, flowing down lyk a waterfall
i feel lyk u've alwaz been, forever a part of me
and its so unbelievable to finally be in love, somewhr i nv thot i'll be

in my heart in my head its so clear nw
hold my hand u've gt nthing to fear nw
i was lost and u rescued me somehw
im alive, im in love, u complete me
and ive nv been here before. nw i see what love means

when i think of wat i have and this chance i nearly lost
i cant help but break dwn and cry

nw i see what love is

2006-02-23T06:36:00.000-08:00

23 feb, 10.36pm

went for perlini sliver sale today. i was so tempted. the heart shaped ring tt ive been wanting was on sale. but still.. not cheap enough. im a cheapo. i admit it. BUT!! its too wrong to buy a normal 925 sliver ring for wat? 40 bucks? madness. i rather spend tt 40 bucks on a new tee. haa. bought a pair of earrings in de end. 5 bucks ONLY!!! wheeee.... haha... mom's jealous. cos i didnt gt her anything. MOMMY!! IM BROKE LAH!! haha... i finally gt myself a wallet ok. buy wallet i still sting u knw mommy.. use voucher, use discount. but of cos. the price cut lyk mad lah. i lyk. haha... mommy.. go leech on daddy nw plz.. heh.

ok. abt the wallet. ROAR!! I WANT THE WHITE ONE!!!! damn. all the white ones are either sold out, not carried at tt branch or damage in a way or another. lost chain/stains. roar. i ended up getting the sliver ver. =( but its ok.. sliver wun dirty easily. im comforting myself. so shut up. wen gt the pink ver. we both are totally in love with the white ver. but we still both the other colours. why? the design too nice. hahaha.. really. love it almost to death. haha.. too bad. its nt white in colour.

i cant wait for tml. LAST PAPER!!! studied lyk mad today juz for the sale. haha.. den. i gt into the studying mood. studied whenever i gt a chance to. when im home, on the train, on the bus. man. im hardworking. juz for today. haha.. hopefully.. my effort will pay off tml. wish me luck!

2006-02-22T02:29:00.000-08:00

22 feb, 6.29pm

juz gt home fr sch. dcnk's exam.. hmm.. i guess it was alrite. but i knw i blew 10 over points for sure. well, at least thrs a possibility to get a B still rite? hopefully prata man [every1's fave lecturer. even prissy whud work hard juz for him] whudden be disappointed this time.

went to sch early. it was funny hw i act spotted prissy at a bus stop and she gt me to get dwn and board the bus she was on. haha.. miss! nt lyk u dunno hw many things i gt in my hand and hanging fr my ear LAH. hahah... my file, my papers, my bag, my hp with my ear piece hanging fr my ear, tokin to u. the uncle thot i was mad ok! haha... anywaz. we went to meet peter to gt her bday pressie fr him. he gt a iDog. he's mad. he wanted to buy her a chihuahua and put the lil fellow into a box. oei!!! im glad u knw the dog will die in thr. hahah.. den.. adrian [her godbro] came. he thot, peter bought us mac too. no ok.. he only gt us maggie mee and bubble tea can. haha.. he gt u and himself mac. poor prissy. adrian kept jinxing her before her paper. see lah!! make her forgt hw to do subnet only. *shakes head* haha.. adrian even bet with real money she'll fail. prissay... ive gt faith in u girl. hee.. and no.. dun u dare bribe the lecturer with the 50 bucks meow-bin ask u to put. hahaha..

im nt looking forward to sch hols act. sch hols = no allowance = i gotta work. sch hols == no sch == not seeing honey lyk 3 to 5 times a week. this sucks.

2006-02-20T03:42:00.000-08:00

20 feb, 7.44pm

BOO! >.<

2006-02-19T03:46:00.000-08:00

more pics of my babies..

arent they cute?? heh

and this bottle, isnt my baby. but its my perfume. haha
curious by britney spears. prettayyyy..

19 feb, 7.47pm

today.. is not a fruitful day. *snores* im suppose to study the whole day. but no... i fell aslp! shit! den... mom wanted her nails painted so, had to do a manicure for her. rite.. and nw? im juz done with the last few notes for iiso. i need to do more work. but. i can concentrate!! argh..

2006-02-17T20:20:00.000-08:00

18 feb, 12.20pm

i am waiting to go out. haha.. im gonna go collect my curious today!! yea!!! haha.. THANK U DAVID! SOON SOon Soon soon soon soon DAO DAo Dao dao WEN WEn Wen wen... hahaha... anywaz. i was suppose to be out earlier.. BUT! wen's toilet bowl gt stuck. haha.. UNCLE!! cannot fix ltr isit?????? haha... toilet bowl stuck oso muz tell me earlier.. so i can slp longger. haha..

i hate being a girl now. sorry if i start pms-ing lyk mad people. i juz cant help it LAH. heh. privileges of being a girl thou. haha.. see.. thrs good and bad to everything.. including the time of the month. obviously. this has more cons den pros. haa.

okie. i wanna go study for awhile nw.

2006-02-16T04:38:00.000-08:00

my new born babies. seann and zephy =))

dont we look cute together? hahahaha..

16 feb, 8.44pm

ok. pics are up! all are up in spaces [link -> photo2]. i want exams to pass QUICK. becos, i wanna watch pink panther, i wanna go out, i wanna laze ard, i wanna play lyk mad. haha... I DUN LYK TO STUDY!! =(( but its ok.. ive the company from my new borns. hee.. they kept me company as i studied today. heh..

i think.. ive lost concentration on studying again. haha.. i cant help it. i juz finished battling with oopg [java]. total eew. ok. im gonna go back to watching american idol nw. ciaoz

2006-02-15T03:48:00.000-08:00

15 feb, 7.48pm

i whud lyk to annouce something. *shouts* I WENT TO THE ZOO TODAY!! YIPPEE!! haha... im a happy girl. haha.. honey brought me to the zoo today. and gave me my new born babies and my fave flavoured lolly! hee.. they're so cute. love them to death [them = sean, seann, zephy!!! haha]. heh. and mom was smart enough to knw my babies are from him. haha.. oh well.. its a matter of time she's gonna burst out saying tt she knws we're together. haha.. heck.

oh my gosh. can u peeps choose a better time to msg me?!?!!?! %&^#@!& I AM WATCHING ANIMALS PERFORMING!! gosh. and yar. i gt to pat a rabbit! whee..... haha... and thr was this sjc girl who happened to be thr too.. gt frightened by a guinea pig. hahaha... she wanted to pat it and it ran. well.. i freaked out in front of him 3 TIMES today. ahh!! haha... 1's was due to this lil lizard lyk creature running across me [on the ground. pretty near my feet]. 2 time was becos of a twig. it gt stuck in my slippers n my slippers slipped off my foot. haha... lastly.. it was becos of this plant. i "banged" into the plant. haha... gosh... oh yar. 1 animal gt cancelled. *sulks* but its ok. at least i gt to see my penguins, racoons, polar bears, etc. hee.. i guess.. we were 2 overgrown babies. haha.. and the baboons!! oh my gosh. their asses are RED. really red mind u. haha.. the elephant show was cute. haha... call the elephant darling. rite honey? haha.. i think all the animals in the zoo are having diahorrea today. i keep seeing them poop and pee.. wat a nice sight huh.

not all pics are up yet. so... check back another day. maybe tml? haa

2006-02-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

14 feb, 4.35pm

gt home for awhile nw. Went to gt green tea n other stuffs for mommy and met wan xuan for milo. haha.. its been ages since we 2 mad girls met up for milo. haa. yes. its our part time hobby. juz for me n her. haha.. den.. she ditch me to go meet her bf. ok. u win. hw could u ditch ur fren??? *sobs* haha.. kidding. shoo.. go have fun with him. dun gt into trouble okie? haha...

toking to wen nw. my gf.. I LOVE U TO MANY BITS!! haha.. i knw u're nt ok.. but i'll alwaz be here when u need me. juz gimme a ring. hee.. the hotline is on 24/7. heh. and she say's it time for us to renew our wedding vows. haha.. woman. since when we had a lesbian wedding? but nice thot though. haha...

yes. once again... st valentine's day is spent with a girl. hahaa... it has became my traddition i think. haha.. even though it was only for awhile today.

oh oh.. yes.. and to prissy my darling number 2.. I LOVE U TOO!!!! yes. to many bits too. hee.. =)) and... to u too. yes u. the only male i have feelings for. haa. i said it to u yest already. hee.

wen: lets fake a smile. they juz dun understand.

2006-02-13T04:53:00.000-08:00

13 feb, 8.54pm

everyday's valentine's day

was listening to eminem's when im gone and its making me feel really sad. hmm.. it does remind me of me n dad though. dad's alwaz not around. Ok, fine. Same as haylie. Well, at least haylie's dad [eminem] loves his daughter alot and express it. I knw dad do nt love me as much. Becos im didnt turn out to be wat he wants me to be. A boy, a guitarist and doing engineering. fuck it. Im not a boy. GIVE IT UP DAD! IM A GIRL! I love drums more den classical guitar. yes, i do love music. but ive gt preference too! cant u fucking see im nt happy at home?! argh! Stop making me pretend lyk i am! i knw u can see my unhappiness dad! why force me still? i knw u hate the idea of me being a girl and loves designing. screw it! i can nv be a boy. stop treating me lyk im 1. I want you, dad, ard too. but its too late. I wanted u to watch me grow up as a girl. Ok fine, juz watch me grow up will do. Nw's really too late to turn back. Ive already grown up even though deep inside mommy's heart im still her lil girl. But i was and never will be ur's rite? Im suppose to be your lil boy. I tried to stay positive all this while. But.. for the past 18yrs. Ive waited for u to shower me with love, care and concern. U nv once did even though u claim u did. I can feel it dad. If u did shower me with love, care and concern, hw come i dun feel it? Simply becos u didnt. You alwaz beat me up lyk mad, lock me out of the hse and all. U say all these are for my own good. so not true. it leaves a scar behind. Why do u think ive been rebelling all these time? All juz becos i want ur fucking attention. I want ur time and attention. But wat do i gt instead? being beaten up den u'll avoid me for days. Well, at least i had a lil of u ard since this is the only way to gt ur attention. So, u find that all ur frenz are more impt den ur family. Think money can cover everything? sorry. it cant. I still have this deep scar inside of me. It can never heal.

fuck it. Dad wudden see this entry. he'll nv knw hw i feel. even if he knew, i doubt he'll do anything. I human too dad.

2006-02-11T02:15:00.000-08:00

words are done using moisturizer. isnt it cute? haha..
11 feb, 6.19pm

was suppose to be home studying today. but. oh well.. shopping tempted me not to. haha.. bought a new tee, belt n sandals today. all are cheap goods. haha.. amazing discounts i muz say. gt this rhinestone puncher thing today too. love it! hee.. since he still cant gt me some of his photos, so i guess all i can do nw is to change of plan. maybe am gonna do him something else. my lil gf knws wats the plan. haha.. but am nt sure abt it yet. we'll see. hee..

so you made everyone hate u. u changed too much till its beyond control. we muz say tt we dun really lyk the way you are now. too much things happened till its seriously getting on our nerves. bitch, gt the hint. dun wait till its really gone.

2006-02-09T06:30:00.000-08:00

im watching grammys. damn... bad grammy show this yr. a few technical probs. tsk tsk.

2006-02-06T21:31:00.000-08:00

yesterday was grandma n grandpa's wedding anni. HAPPY ANNI!! hee.. they're so cute!! The loving-est grandparents ever. haha.. mom, uncle n i ganged up to tease them as they cut their "wedding cake" hee.. we made grandpa n grandma hug and grandpa kiss grandma.. AWWW!!! hee.. can u feel the love in the air? hahah.. ok. tt was a real cheesy phrase. who cares! haa. [go to my new spaces.msn to check the pics out. its under photo2 link]

went out with hon juz nw. my gosh. im so full. haha.. stick chewy choc n pasta. *burps and rubs tummy* yummy!! hee.. gt him tofu man stuffs. im glad u lyk it alot. hee..

im so happy. my website proj is DONE. YES. D-O-N-E, DONE! yea!! haha... okok.. gotta upload my proj for marking nw.. *orbs. haha*

2006-01-29T21:30:00.000-08:00

30 jan, 1.31pm

oh my gosh. im sooooo bbbbboooooorrrrrrreeeeeedddddd at home. mommy wun let me out!! argh.. was suppose to go for a movie with wen ltr. but! mommy refuses to let me go!!!! *sulks big time*

anywaz.. went to granny's place till lyk 2 plus plus am. *droopy eyes* played cards with uncles n grandpa, watch pacifer [half way. cos the player had problems. damn!], mom n aunts playing mahjong [so noisy........]. yea. tts basically it. and obviously, collected ang baos too.

yea!! goin for more visiting tml. haha.. we're goin to wen's place. not all 11 of us. but.. half of the grp will be goin. miss them. den on fri, we'll all be meeting again. steamboat!! yea!! haha... *chills* ok. its lunch time.

2006-01-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

29 jan, 5.48pm

pathetic!!! my ang baos are majorly pathetic. trust me. i cant hit 250 bucks this yr. y? cos dad asked to leave when half of his family isnt at granny's place yet. dad wanted to go dwn town to have his fave steak. but too bad... taka's closed. damnit. we shud have stayed thr so i can gt more ang baos!! haha... i knw honey is gonna support me [meaning i dun need so much money] but still.. i want more ang baos. haha...

something is seriously wrong with my sim card. i cant recieve some msgs fr my classmates!! oh no.. i think its high time to change my sim soon. but.. but.. but.. its too ex LAH. heh. nvm. so long as im able to recieve honey's msgs, im fine with it. hee..

okie. gotta go to granny's place [fat fat grandma] nw. ciaoz!

2006-01-28T02:55:00.000-08:00

28 jan, 6.54pm

i take back wat i said juz nw. i dun feel 1 bit threatened by u. i guess.. ur plan failed. aww. hw sad. lyk i care.

2006-01-27T23:07:00.000-08:00

28jan, 3.07pm

fucking bitch. wat the hell is ur fucking prob? why cant u fucking leave us alone? fine if u wanna still be frenz with him. but u dont have to come waving shit in face. "oh do u knw i met him?" dont make me hate u bitch.

i admit. im feeling a lil threaten.

2006-01-27T04:16:00.000-08:00

27 jan, 8.16pm

its ironic how i act dislike smokers and a lot of family members i love, and frenz smokes. hmmm..

i think baby is under my influence. hahaha.. playing of pranks!! hon... becoming a prankster huh.. haha.. he's current prank? playing a prank on a total loser. a.k.a stalker. haa...

anywaz. tml's cny eve. NOT EXCITED. i wanna run away fr cny. argh.. they're coming over to my place for reunion dinner tml nite. IM GONNA LOCK MY ROOM!! to prevent annoying people fr entering my room and touching of my stuffs. ok.. gonna go do my proj nw. ciaoz.